What i want in my Freaking Life!!

Well well..its like another 8 days i'll b offiicially 24 years old. I set a goal in me what i want in my life. 1st of all i want a car of my own...and eventually it came out about a year ago right after i start my very 1st career at KPMG:)

This is my super duper cutY MiVi SE Pearl white. Baught it with my own money and pay it by my own ok!.fuh...i can say that i become more adult each day :) hehe

So...what i would like to have now....not really now la..my next mission are....Buy a House!!!! Property Investment...thats what i'm looking for rite now...its not 2 late aite at the age of 23 just started to actually think to get involve with property investment..hmm..... I would say my dream house would be at Bali, Indonesia...but not to think soooo freaking far! I'll stick to...SINARAN TTDI.heee.... i always passed by SINARAN TTDI on my way to work..even thou its slightly out of my way to office but i make my self pass that House.huhu..its actually still under costruction/developing.hehe. Here it is....

Then..this is soooOo gonna be my Dream car!! BMW X6!!! Do yo guys think i can have it one day?? i know what u guys actually been thinking over there...heLL NO! i'm not gonna marry a RICH DUDE just to have all this....i'm a person who always go for my own money and obviously it pays all my HARD WORK! no matter what...its such a satisfaction if u actually acheive what u want in life ;) and yeah....its good to dream for something we desire about right?..so...DREAM ON LINDA^_^...hehehee

And last but not least...of course...i always wish for an eternity love:)

When i felt missed.....

This Video tell the whole some of my heart rite now...sweet and tears...

Another nite couldn't sleep

Gosh..lately i couldn't sleep...maybecos something stuck in my freaking head. i donno what..most probably work stuffs i guess......hmm..ntah la.maybe i'm missing my mom...she's been way to Dubai this morning..but yeah...it feel like a week i didn't see her. Well linda...Wake up!!! ur not a lil girl anymore...no...not anymore...damn! i hate that....used to be depanding on Mom ad siblings...sorry u guys..i'm jus being Linda who always making lots of troubles.hehe

damn!! 2moro i've a big meeting with client..and i think i'm gonna speak my own mind..cra crap crap*.. its 3 in da morning!!!! and i've to wakeup like...7.30am..oh noooo!!! i need 5 hours..atleast!!! k..better Shut down my self!!! i MUST SLEEP!! SLEEP linda SLEEP!!!

^_^

yehaaa....finally have my own time!

It was such a bz day 4 me lately. Ever since i changed my job, i've no TIME to actually restructure back my room.Even thou i've been dreaning almost everytime that i will touch up here and there soon..but never seems to do it. haha. Today happen i ain't got anything to do..left home alone. My sibling went out to help my mom @ Masjid cos my mom is having something like port luck with 'masjid2' people..yeah..sorta like ay family day i supposed. I have my own reson why i'm not joining..not that i dont wanna get involve nor not into the faily2 thingy kind of stuff bu yeah...i've make aplan to make over my ROOM!! wheee...hehe .

Seriusly, i'm not good at 'BERTUKANG' ok. Couple of times my cute lil nail skit lagi kena ketuk by HAMMER! haha... GOSH! seriously this is SooooOo guy's work! but yeah..i got it all done BY MYSELF! YAY!=)

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

All da pictures done as u can see is done by me...the photography, the painting on canvas...thats the things i will do on my pass time. The time when i'm free and i just wanna spend a day by myself with out any intruption;)

This is what i called my DRUGS BED! seriusly...when i lay down on it ..it feels like the world is all MINE.i dont even wanna get up ad thats when my mom starts to call me to come down and have dinner or something 2gether. haha...I've alwys love being surrounded by teddies...Much more likely is when the teddy came from someone special;) hee... And please i'm not a sme sort like a kiddo..its just somethig girls llike to have i guess=) isn't it?

Well....how's it like? what to u think da choice of my room color...set up...and overall?? how's it? i knowits still a lil but untidy...but..thats the best i can go for 2day=) lots of things to be update,thou...huhu

Single life.

Its been almost 3 weeks i've been single. Lots of things happen. Fallen after fallen and it makes my life pretty hard as for now. I thought end up a relationship was easy cos i've been through it like couples of times. But the fact this time round its much more harder.


I hate the fact that every nite before i go to sleep, i'll be wondering bout him..about what his been doing, what he had for his dinner, and does he think about me as much as i do. Probably not! cos i know him well. Once its over, its gonna be TOTALLY OVER . Guys always like that...only girls who always think bout her passed and those lovey dovey memories. The most sickening thing is he's always on my mind. He is EVERYWHERE! He's still and always on my freaking mind the 1st thing when i wake up every single day. hmmpk;(

Your lips pressed hard against my own,
If you weren't holding me down I feel like I would have flown away.
Just by smiling at me you make my day.
You sing to me on the phone, You tell me that I am not alone.
Everything you've ever said swims through my head.
My first though before I get out of bed is about you.
You’re my first breath when I breathe.
You’re my first thought when I wake up.
I smile at you and u smile back.
When I moved away, I cried myself to sleep.
My love for you was deep.
But now my love for you is no more...........

Racing thoughts.

So here I am another night up. I took a nap and I knew I shouldn't have but I was so tired and feeling unwell. Now I'm stuck here wide awake. I'm so mess up with lots of things running through my head every single time. There are so much works pending and when tomorrow comes I think I will be so screw up!

Normally on nights I can't sleep I find that I'm thinking about the smallest stupidest things ever! I start thinking about what I'm going to wear tomorrow. The people I’ve been missing lately and wondering should I just call. The bills that are due. The meeting I’ve to attend. The laundary that needs to be done. Then comes the wondering what will happen if I don't do all this. My life would become easier perhaps. And if I can change this by doing that. LOL! The racing thoughts. Ugh! I just want to shut my brain down. I think it gets better. Or at least I hope!

What I do when I can’t sleep is count the potatoes...

One potato.
Two potato.
Red potato.
Blue potato.
Old potato.New potato.
Old potato.
Ewww potato.....ZzzzZZzzzzz

GOOD NIGHT! -_-

Yesteday and Tommorow...

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry. Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is yesterday with its mistakes and cares, Its faults and blunders, Its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed. We cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone.

The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow. With its possible adversities, Its burdens, Its large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's Sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn. This just leaves only one day . . . Today.

Any person can fight the battles of just one day. It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternity's, yesterday and tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of today that drives people mad. It is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.

Let us therefore live but one day at a time......