Single life.

Its been almost 3 weeks i've been single. Lots of things happen. Fallen after fallen and it makes my life pretty hard as for now. I thought end up a relationship was easy cos i've been through it like couples of times. But the fact this time round its much more harder.


I hate the fact that every nite before i go to sleep, i'll be wondering bout him..about what his been doing, what he had for his dinner, and does he think about me as much as i do. Probably not! cos i know him well. Once its over, its gonna be TOTALLY OVER . Guys always like that...only girls who always think bout her passed and those lovey dovey memories. The most sickening thing is he's always on my mind. He is EVERYWHERE! He's still and always on my freaking mind the 1st thing when i wake up every single day. hmmpk;(

Your lips pressed hard against my own,
If you weren't holding me down I feel like I would have flown away.
Just by smiling at me you make my day.
You sing to me on the phone, You tell me that I am not alone.
Everything you've ever said swims through my head.
My first though before I get out of bed is about you.
You’re my first breath when I breathe.
You’re my first thought when I wake up.
I smile at you and u smile back.
When I moved away, I cried myself to sleep.
My love for you was deep.
But now my love for you is no more...........

Racing thoughts.

So here I am another night up. I took a nap and I knew I shouldn't have but I was so tired and feeling unwell. Now I'm stuck here wide awake. I'm so mess up with lots of things running through my head every single time. There are so much works pending and when tomorrow comes I think I will be so screw up!

Normally on nights I can't sleep I find that I'm thinking about the smallest stupidest things ever! I start thinking about what I'm going to wear tomorrow. The people I’ve been missing lately and wondering should I just call. The bills that are due. The meeting I’ve to attend. The laundary that needs to be done. Then comes the wondering what will happen if I don't do all this. My life would become easier perhaps. And if I can change this by doing that. LOL! The racing thoughts. Ugh! I just want to shut my brain down. I think it gets better. Or at least I hope!

What I do when I can’t sleep is count the potatoes...

One potato.
Two potato.
Red potato.
Blue potato.
Old potato.New potato.
Old potato.
Ewww potato.....ZzzzZZzzzzz

GOOD NIGHT! -_-

Yesteday and Tommorow...

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry. Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is yesterday with its mistakes and cares, Its faults and blunders, Its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed. We cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone.

The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow. With its possible adversities, Its burdens, Its large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's Sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn. This just leaves only one day . . . Today.

Any person can fight the battles of just one day. It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternity's, yesterday and tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of today that drives people mad. It is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.

Let us therefore live but one day at a time......

Its the end of us...- 26/11/08-30/05/09

Its a sad thing after 6 months been through 2gether as couple. All the ups and downs we faced. And i realised and so did he that we do love each other but there are so many emptiness in oneself. We couldn't even figure out own our own. At last, we seat down and talk what best for both of us. I'm kind of disappointed bout what had happen cos all this while i tried my best to give the best out of my self. But i didn't see from his side. Maybe its true..God send him into my life for little while. I took it as faith. After all this what we call life. He text me last nite saying...

dear Linda..
I'm sorry for acting so cold lately. Its not that i got issues with you or wat.NOPE. not at all. U've been so nice to me all this while. how r u nway? i hope u're doing fine and great as always. let me be frank with you n to be honest lately each day i feellike i'm loosing you..its like i'm walking away. I dont know why....but the feeling is not as straong as last time. Maybe u're right..i've changed but i'm not sure wats wrong. I've been trying to get myself into dat feeling towards u like last time..but still i couldn't find. Its like looking for an answer that the question doesn't even exist. Maybe u're rite ..we r wasting time here..i'm sorry, u can hate me if u want to..i got nothing againts u..gid nite linda. Wish u nothing but the best n take care. This is my good bye..linda roos.


what a lonnnnnngg SMS he send me. Everything reveal at last. what i strongly hold all this while cracked and dropped. So, i did replied his sms that makes him wanna meet me up 2day. We had a good chat and discussion on what happen between us..i just wanna clarify those that been stucked in my head like long time ago. I wasn't sure is he the one i wanna end my life with or should i just keep on waiting for him to change to a kind of guy which i can look up for? i donno...cos all i know i did my part as a responsible and good gf for him. respectful, honest and committed ..all been done... yeah..maybe its true what people told me...if he wants and really into me he'll accept me as who i am...not changing me to someone else. I noticed that like loong time ago at the early stage of out relationship that we wasn't doing so well..cos always miss communications along the way... So, we decided to end this with a good understanding chat between us.Just two of us....meeting up at the same place we used to have dinner 2gether..the spot that our 1st love sparked but now...remain as memories...

Thanks for giving me a room to be loved in your sincere heart..sorry if something that i did hurt u and sorry not being a GF like what u expected. I had tried to serve u the best as i could...Wishing the best for myself and so for u My Moo Moo, Shac.

The Last Special note i gave him....

Dear Shac,

First of all, i would like to say sorry for what i’ve done with or without your acknowledgements. And thanks to for being part of my life for just a little while. I’m not very sure what the problem was as much as you didn’t really know the answers is. Well, true love hears what is not spoken, and understand what is not explained, for love doesn’t work in the mouth nor the mind, but in the heart.

Sometimes i even asked myself, what did i do to deserve all this? To think that i have everything else, I get what I want and give the best out of myself. Then i realized it was YOU, i can’t stay longer with you and too bad our love was meant to be for a while. I can’t blame you for not learning to love me more as much i can’t blame myself to just stay and giving more hope to you. I’ll keep searching for the right answers of my own as well whether to just take it a time off or just walk out from each other life and stay as friend or even start all over again.??..falling in love wasn’t so easy for me as much as falling out of love despite that I see things in every aspect which i consider it’s a best way for everyone in relationship.

Just wanna let you know that what happen between me and you was for real. It was real...The kiss, miss and love came from my sincere heart. I still and always remember the good times that we had and all the obstacles in relationship we been through together. As i said to you, if we happen come across each other life in the future that means we are meant for each other but if we are not let us take that as an experience in our life journey.

Things that i will miss about you are your Egoness, your Ignorance, the fighting, your miss communication with me, the anger look u gave me every time i did something stupid and most important ones is everything that lack in you...cos i love every single piece of you considering the bad and the good ones.

Good Luck for your future undertaking. I will pray and hope everything gonna be good for both of us. Take care my Moo Moo..T_T. You are such a great boyfriend to me. Keep in touch.

Xoxo

Love.peace.hug.

Linda Roos

Would u just listen...whould u?

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now things started to change, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we always fall out,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many days,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I always be one compenent.

happy life..

Alhamdulillah. Everything been quite well as planned. 2day is my Brother's birthday. I couldn't manage to celebrate with him since i've to go to Kelantan for Sua Rasa. Thought i would have my weekends back after the transfered but not exactly. hehe.. Well, i'm happy for what i'm doing now. My family, friends and special ones are so supportive. That's the best past of all.

Shara.Linda & Wani Me and my Love,Shac

Last 2 weeks, I had an enjoyment weekend. Tv9 had its Splish Splash 3rd Anniversary celebration @ Sunway lagoon. Me, Wany, and Liyana slept over @ Sunway Hotel to settle few things 2gether. Everything went so well as we enjoyed ourself there=)

Life is getting more serious each day...the work loads..gosh!! so much!!! i didn't have time of my own..what i do is make myself enjoy and fall in love more and more in what i'm doing ;) INsyAllah, one sweet day i'll be successful.

News to Business Development

My life starting April have changed. I transfered to TV9 Business and Developement group on 1st April. Finally, I'm at the peak of my career target. All this while i wanted to involve in advertising line but i'm always end up in else where.hehe. That's life after all..we can set want we want to be but along the way we accidentally take a wrong turn. For me every turn i took before this make me more wiser..cos it gave me different colors and experiences in life. Now, I'm glad that i've found my route back specificly on my career wise. In terms of realtionship..hmmm..i've no comment bout it. Just stay still on what's going on till the right moment come where i've the guts to figure out and spoke out what's best for me, myself and I.

This Sunday, 19/4/09 will be TV9 3rd Anni!!! wheeee....cant really wait for it.heee
=)