I dont even know where to begin. From the first time we talked to each other on the phone i knew you were special in some way. And the first time we met, words cannot even explain. I was so nervous, untill i saw you. I actually hide and pretend as cool as i can be. It seemed natural, like we've known each other for years. yeah..we actually did but its way back then where we happen to just smile at each other. Truth is, its been just under 8 weeks. I never knew i could feel this strongly about someone this soon, but you've proved me wrong.
Its hard for me to tell you how i feel, because no one in my previous relationships has wanted that. Not that i know..And if they have, I've been afraid to tell them because i was too afraid of being hurt as much as i'm afraid of loosing. Please bare with me, I'm working on it. I will slowly be able to tell you how i feel or what i'm thinking. I read this quote today and it's made me think.
"The best way to love is to love like you've never been hurt".
That very quote fits my situation 100%. I keep dwelling on the past and what everyone else has done to me. After reading that i realized i cannot be with you and be happy and continue to dwell on what other guys have done to me. I'm seeing you now..I'm with you. Not them. I need to concentrate on making you happy. And letting you make me happy. Up till this point you've been different. I know you care for me and want to be with me. I am sorry I've doubted that. There has not been a moment in the last 8 weeks where i have doubted any feelings for you.
You walked into my life and totally turned it around. I was so depressed and torn up about what had happened to me in the last year or so. I was nearly ready to give up and stop believing. You gave me the hope that i needed to keep going on and strengthen my believes once again that there are still rooms in someone heart for me. I am so grateful for knowing and having you in my life as for now. I've been waiting on someone just like you walk into my life. Thanks for open up my lil tiny heart making a room to be loved and care once again.
One last thing that i really and wanted to tell this very someone but have not been able to bring myself to do so.....that i'm starting to fall for him each day..hmm...will wait for the right moment i guess..^_^
wow.. someone has found her mr charming..
ReplyDeletei hope he'll be the one..
good luck dear...!! *hugs*
hehe..blum lg dear..its still under consideration. I dont wanna fall into the same mistake ever again. So, take it so slow and lightly this time round...gosh! i'm speaking like an adult now. ^_^ haha.. tp still make him as my main subject to be discover. ;)
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