Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Single life.

Its been almost 3 weeks i've been single. Lots of things happen. Fallen after fallen and it makes my life pretty hard as for now. I thought end up a relationship was easy cos i've been through it like couples of times. But the fact this time round its much more harder.

I hate the fact that every nite before i go to sleep, i'll be wondering bout him..about what his been doing, what he had for his dinner, and does he think about me as much as i do. Probably not! cos i know him well. Once its over, its gonna be TOTALLY OVER . Guys always like that...only girls who always think bout her passed and those lovey dovey memories. The most sickening thing is he's always on my mind. He is EVERYWHERE! He's still and always on my freaking mind the 1st thing when i wake up every single day. hmmpk;(

Your lips pressed hard against my own,
If you weren't holding me down I feel like I would have flown away.
Just by smiling at me you make my day.
You sing to me on the phone, You tell me that I am not alone.
Everything you've ever said swims through my head.
My first though before I get out of bed is about you.
You’re my first breath when I breathe.
You’re my first thought when I wake up.
I smile at you and u smile back.
When I moved away, I cried myself to sleep.
My love for you was deep.
But now my love for you is no more...........

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Racing thoughts.

So here I am another night up. I took a nap and I knew I shouldn't have but I was so tired and feeling unwell. Now I'm stuck here wide awake. I'm so mess up with lots of things running through my head every single time. There are so much works pending and when tomorrow comes I think I will be so screw up!

Normally on nights I can't sleep I find that I'm thinking about the smallest stupidest things ever! I start thinking about what I'm going to wear tomorrow. The people I’ve been missing lately and wondering should I just call. The bills that are due. The meeting I’ve to attend. The laundary that needs to be done. Then comes the wondering what will happen if I don't do all this. My life would become easier perhaps. And if I can change this by doing that. LOL! The racing thoughts. Ugh! I just want to shut my brain down. I think it gets better. Or at least I hope!

What I do when I can’t sleep is count the potatoes...

One potato.
Two potato.
Red potato.
Blue potato.
Old potato.New potato.
Old potato.
Ewww potato.....ZzzzZZzzzzz


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Yesteday and Tommorow...

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry. Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is yesterday with its mistakes and cares, Its faults and blunders, Its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed. We cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone.

The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow. With its possible adversities, Its burdens, Its large promise and poor performance. Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's Sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise. Until it does, we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn. This just leaves only one day . . . Today.

Any person can fight the battles of just one day. It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternity's, yesterday and tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of today that drives people mad. It is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.

Let us therefore live but one day at a time......