Sunday, November 20, 2011
Despite my warm and happy feeling, there sumthing bothering me...i know when it comes to this kind of gathering or celebration with my fwen's family its gonna be such hustle...this is because....hmmmm...me and her brother happen to fall in love with each other....gosh! It supposed to be easy and fun but.....yesh i truly understand ....when it comes about family things will get slightly sensetive and touching. i'm truly aware about it...
so there goes me handling the situation all alone...well knowing myself pretty well, after all the life experience i went through i'll take it as another challenge in me. Ya Allah, seriously how i wish the person who i'm falling in love with can be beside me and face this situation together..in every bit of my praying, i always include this lil pray for me and him to be in such a good way and will trust each other when others dont...
there goes the 1st meet up, unofficially, wt his parents...no doubt i can say its just another small introduction to the family. well, seems like the siblings know me but not the parents.What bother me is the intoducing part not done by my man...hmm..this is so not rite. but yeah....life is too short to think bout whats others thinking bout one selves.
what happen i take it as warning sign towards me...oh no.. this is not a BULLSHIT kinda sign okay!~ this is what my life which i supposed to deal in the future...ahaks!~ insyAllah...i believes God in the middle clearing our path ^_^'
Thursday, November 17, 2011
here goes the story of my baby frosty.....guess what he have been my rainbow sunshine for the past 1 year plus. woww....let me repeat back...1 YEAR PLUS! Isn't that awesome..that means me and my love ones have been for about a year B-) well actually my life so far been so blessed with beautiful things and wonderful people surround me...frosty is one of them.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Raya comes with peace to me and i can feel the whole lots different this very year. Perhaps, i gotta celebrate raya with a lil more joy knowing there is someone i love indeed who is my own Boyfriend. such awkward things to find that i've changed slowly to someone good...i mean...not to say that i'm a bad person..somehow there a bad behavior/characters in me slowly fade away. and i donno how does it happen..its shows that THE LOVE FACTOR really works now for me. hmm....Alhamdulillah...for that. My prayers slowly been answered by Allah swt.
Person who are really important and will be there for me at the most everything that i do in this entire world...
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Ya ALlah, tunjukkanlah bagi ku, umat Mu yang lemah ini kejalan yang lebih di rahmatiMu..sesungguhnya Engkaulah tempat aku memohon dan berpegang teguh dan kepada Mu jualah ku berserah segalanya. amin~
Saturday, July 30, 2011
I just turned 26. The creative Lionist me, is really not big on birthdays. In fact, I went for a short gateway with Mom before just to get rid with my personal problems, where i guess its just hard for people to know and for me to figure it out. I believed my mom knows what I've been facing lately, so I asked her for me to tag along wt her on her business trip to Pakistan.
During that time, I kept away talking much with people...not to my friends or my lovely bf. I think i just need to spend my time alone..rethink bout what i've missed and how to over come strange feelings which i'm having in me lately..Alhamdulillah, 3 days away from my country and found a lil peace in me. And that lil peace have change me to more wiser 26 years old Linda. I did texting my dearest ever friend,Dura, as i'm looking forward to attend Ica babyshower. At the same time, she mentioned would like to celebrate my birthday as well and bear Von Bonyage! I find it pretty cool and glad to come back home wt something awaits me.
Back from Pakistan/India dura told me to bring My lovely bf to the dinner in celebrating my birthday.hmm....even thou its really hard for me as i know the reaction of my bf, glad that i did it and smoothly hide that such feeling i had without anyone can sense it... I was stunned. It was such a well-organised, least-expected birthday surprise! (Although what i'm looking at is meet up wt my fwens that i grew up together with..oh! it was truly fun!!!)
I was and still happy when ever i think of all that i've been thro wt all of them...
Thank you dura, shaqila, ica, and all! I’m so lucky to have great friends like you all. Not forgetting my dearest Amal...thx for being there. :) God bless u all with successful stories;)
Monday, July 11, 2011
Other things which would be nice: a Thomas Sabo Charm bracelet; a rhinestone bra from la senza(shimmering ta-tas, ahoy!); my all time favorite gadget Ipad2; a night in with fairy lights & kisses; lots of cute colourful knickers; Regan from MAC Flatiron to be my personal make-up artist; good black ink pens; a beautiful apartment somewhere far from the city and over view of beautiful ocean; a fabulous birthday party with my friends or a romantic dine wt my lovely munchkin; peace on earth! Wink wink ;)
P.S. Here’s my wishlist from last last last year!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
what i know and i look up for is LOVE COMES NATURULLY after lovers finally meet thier level of understanding and somehow leads to unexpected RESPECT! I donno where i can turn to when this issues of relationship arise between me and my other half....seriously i just donno... T_T....Sometimes i keep wondering am i not being a girl up to what he expected? or not even close to his dream girl ? How could i be that girl....? question that i cant even figure out the answer on my own......maybe i just let time decide for the truly answer...
This might be a lil bit to cliche or probably funny....i just dont wanna feel down too long after what i faced, so i decided to google some tips on Being a good girlfriend.haha
Suggestion on how to be a good girlfriend
1: Be real honest: Whereas self honest to you are helper, it is equally vital that you be honest to yourself and yes, in a grown-up relationship, honesty is the most excellent policy, as long as you are important other too is honest to himself and we all know it is pretty difficult to expect from anyone. (oh no! i'm lack of this value in me....but as far as i'm concern im still and always be honest to the one that i love and care)
2: Have a optimistic attitude: If all you say about him is a censure or an attack, he will not look onward to seeing you remember people don't want you to be honest with their inadequacy's. It is a improved plan in mature relationships. Be unprompted, but be careful in your impulsiveness.Be happy. (hmm..i can say, this is my narually born attitude)
3: Communicate regularly: Do not talk his ear off, he doesn't need your opinion, if he did he would read a book or something he respects. However, make positive that if you have any difficulty that will have an effect on your mood, he is made aware of the reasons for your problems. so that you do not come into view to just be a indecisive and bad-tempered creature. But if you have big problems, keep it to yourself, because then it may look like you are talking his ear off. (i communicating too much i guess >_< such a troublesome)
4: Build your desires, needs, and opinions: Still when they might disagreement with his. If they do, build certain that you should desist from talking too a great deal concerning them. You decision and needs definitely help you.
5: Be reliable: Such as being truthful first, then being diplomatic next. Such as having the desire to converse issues first, then shutting the torture up. If you want to be reliable, make sure it's well-matched with his/her desires. If you are reliably annoying, they won't have none of that.
6: Be patient: Please don't mechanically think he did not hear you when you said something. May be he was worried with not listening to you. Don't jump to end and don't be bitchy about being ignored all the time. Remember, they may be trying to be reliable with their egocentricism. ( this is another value that i'm lacking in....probably close fwens and love ones know about it but yeah of course i'm trying ...it takes two to tango,thou)
7: Take an interest in his interests: Take an interest in his disinterests too. He may be disinterested in what you like, so at smallest amount try to understand why he is not interested respect it like the relationship saving, selfless person you are. ( he love music and obviously his super hawt guitar.....and yeah...i'm lovin it tooOo just that i dont hv any talent to do so:( but i can DANCE pretty amazing..ahaks!)
and.....................i did took a quiz on 'ARE YOU A GOOD GIRLFRIEND?' and the aswer is what i expected..tadaaaa.....
You are a Great Girlfriend !
When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too! ( i hope my bf realize this indeed) ^_^'
Last word from the bottom of my innocent heart....
Once me and my guy became exclusive and offcial, I will instituted a "hands off" policy for all the guys i know and meet...eat that! thats my Vow ;)
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
As usual, mama was the one who eagerly drag me to see My own Personal Specialist. Told her to bring me to a clinic but i end up in the hospital. Oh God! on my mind, I always have the pass images of myself when i got surrendered at Assunta hospital. So, there I was, got admitted at the same floor but a few rooms away from my previous one.
After made a quick check ups on me, My doctor told me he will give me some medicine for a night and I gotta go for a minor surgery the next day. The nurse push me on the wheel chair towards Wad Fatimah room num 5105. I got a single room all by myself again...Mama just accompany me for a while and then she went back home....
Nothing much i can say being alone in the hospital room. I guess hospital is my second home. I dont know that i'm the only one among my siblings who always go in and out from hospital. Guess i'm not the lucky one....But to think back, who am i to complain about such things. Its faith that God gimme me to be this way and all i can do is to thank Him for what been planned in my Life journey...Being thankful wasnt that hard for me as i've been through more worst that ever before...sigh*
Well, to conclude on why am i've been admitted it is because i've piles stuck inside my colons. According to Doctor, he cant chop off the piles yet and gotta put a rubber band on it just to make my pass motion run smoothly without any bleeding . That i guess one of key solving for my case. He added, the piles couldn't be chop off yet till i get my 1st child or so on...well as long as i can breathe i'm all good and happy:)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Love can be a disaster too. Depends on how you show the love. Don't be obsessed or possessive. That's not love. Jealous? it's good to feel it but just don't let it control you.
Nowadays, I've observed my loved ones relationships, including mine. Our generation do not understand the meaning of real love. What is real love?
For me, I've observed my parents unconditionally love. They love each other no matter what their flaws are like. They stick through ups and downs. For better and worse, til death do them part. That's true love. They commit with each there irregardlessly how bad either one's condition and characteristic
For example, my mother is one of the most patience lady I've came to know. How she deal with my hot tempered father til the end of his last breath. They managed to celebrated their 25th anniversary before he passed away on October 16th...right after me and my mother went home after a long wait seeing father lying on the hospital bed.
During the past few weeks before my dad critically comma, he has admitted what he has done wrong to her and to tell her, she's the best mother to his kids and a sincere wife that he has married to. To be patient with him, to take care of him day and night while he was sick, to bath him when he can't walk (seriously sick about for a month), to give birth to me. Even when there were other women came by an offered to be his another wife, he truly declined. He doesn't want to make those mistakes as he did in the past. He also reminded my mom not to remarried as in our religious, the last wife will be the fairy that'll accompany him on the other side.
My mother is a very strong woman. I only see her shed tears once, at my dad's grave during first day of raya. All she said, he's happier there. When I asked her, don't you ever miss him? All she answered, "I pray for him everyday.." and that's enough.
I'd like to have that love. The love that my parents had. Someday..
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
As i look at my sister, someday, the crushing weight of my being a mother sits on me like sleep paralysis, waiting for me to move, almost daring me to. It wags it’s finger in my face, telling me I’m a bad mother, an ungrateful mother, because I cannot keep up with my own children sometimes, because I pretend when my husband and I are out alone that we ARE alone, that no one waits for us at home, ready to cover us in wet kisses and sticky fingers.
It’s the responsibility that gets to me-the knowledge that forever, I am connected to these creatures-I can never leave them, not truly. They will always be a part of me. Their toes will forever be the toes that kicked me in the ribs.
But somedays it’s the drudgery, it’s getting up and feeding them, convincing clothes onto them, sitting with them, then working all day, arriving home in time to listen to them scream about not wanting to go to bed. Those days get to me. Those days test me, because they test my love for them, they test the bounds of my patience and temper. On those days, the bad mommy sometimes gets to come out and play for a bit.
I have been tempted in the past, to throw up my hands, and walk away from it. From all of it. Times when it’s gotten so hard, too hard, worse than I ever imagined, I wanted to walk down the road, climb up onto the highway, and begone. Never to be seen again. I thought it, many times.
But in my eyes, in my heart, I couldn’t do it, I never would. I could never walk out that door and not come back. Because being a mother isnot just a test-it’s a battle. Sometimes it’s lovely and gentle, other days, it’s bloody and loud and frightful. Somedays I don’t like it at all.
But somedays are so fragile and simple, I want to place them under glass so they never disappear. I draw on those days, to get me through the wrong ones.
I can say my sister is a good example. She just scolded me just to protect her lil ones. Even though, the course of wrong doing its absolutely from her lil princess where everyone seems to put much love to her...even myself did. But look at the bigger picture, children wouldn't learn something if her/his mom keep on say yes to everything and blame others for her child fault.
It is hard for to be in my sister shoes right now. She is a good daughter, a great sister and the only example for me to adapt into a women's world as she is my only sister but...for me she's not yet close to a perfect mother. She being too protective over her daughter that sometimes tend to ignore people feelings. I mean..for God sake, look at the bright side my dear sister...its ok to let your children falls at once for them to know how to climb and reach for what they want. Falling is the step to make us a strong person. Its is good if we expose our kids with this kind of education/experience cos they will be such a fast learner in the days to come.
Sister, you are totally different from me even though we came from a same mother and father. Let yourself loose a lil bit and surely everything will be just fine. I know, everybody will go through faces in life...its a matter of how we go through it and how we cherish every moment. And for real, i couldn't even wait for my time to become like what you have rite now......a family with husband and children of your own.....
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Create, imagine,inspire,share something wonderful each day just to make someone’s day and at the end of it I might get develop a lil happiness in myself. So, I would live my life to its full potential~ Just live, dammit! I will let go of all of the horrible things in my life and fucking live. And one day, when I’m old accompany by my lovely cat, looking back to all the years i went through..i will never ever feel regrets.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I hope you are doing well in tour amazing world now. I wonder what you are going through at this point on time in your life, but i'm pretty sure the life we're currently living is all that you dreamt and imagine it to be.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Love is when you feel like you are the only two around
Friendship is when they gaze into your eyes and you know they care
Love is when they gaze into your eyes and it warms your heart
Friendship is being close even when you are far apart
Love is when you can still feel their hand on your heart when they are not near
Friendship is hoping that they experience the very best
Love is when you bring them the very best
Friendship occupies your mind
Love occupies your soul
Friendship is knowing that you will always try to be there when in need
Love is when you will give up everything to be at their side
Friendship is a warm smile in the winter
Love is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart
Love is a beautiful smile to which nothing compares
A tender laugh, which opens your heart
A single touch that melts away your fears
A smell that reminds you of the tenderness of heaven
A voice that reminds you of the innocence of youth
Friendship can survive without love
Love cannot live without friendship
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Guess what...we actually went to DISCO SKATING at Subang Avenue!!!!!huhuuuuuuuuu....
Monday, February 28, 2011
I miss the time where I stayed at home alone.And looking out from my house.Especially during thunder storm rain, where no computer, tv and even radio is on....Just me lying restlessly on my bed...
Only left my neighbour tiny barks against the angry, loud thunderstorm....
I used to love to dance under the rain, even now I do, but I never get my ass in trouble to dance under thunderstorm rain....
Therefore, today is a special day... I sat in front of my main door, looking out to the rain, listening to the thunder roars, smell the sweet rain drops... Whooppppsss, I forgot I totally lost my mind today. Out of focus in certain areas... i've always woke up wt so much things on my mind that i'd plan the nite before but as for today, the planned went somewhere else..and obviously the mood is everywhere. It was not completely well, but at least I'm make used my day with thinking and realizing things which stuck in my head for quite sometimes....
I didn't go to work today, in fact, I cancelled all my meeting and push it to tomorrow. I know i got to seal the deal and hit on my target for this week but something hold me back..thus, i'm enjoying my rest and relax at home, watching ASTRO-HBO accompany by my lil sophie, lying lazily on my favourite sofa and once a while check on my twitter and facebook....not forgetting replying texts to my lovely and handsome boyfriend... ^_^'
So far so good....and I just love my lazy day!!!!!! Looking forward to an aggressive and productive tomorrow...InsyAllah... :)