Thursday, April 30, 2009

happy life..

Alhamdulillah. Everything been quite well as planned. 2day is my Brother's birthday. I couldn't manage to celebrate with him since i've to go to Kelantan for Sua Rasa. Thought i would have my weekends back after the transfered but not exactly. hehe.. Well, i'm happy for what i'm doing now. My family, friends and special ones are so supportive. That's the best past of all.

Shara.Linda & Wani Me and my Love,Shac

Last 2 weeks, I had an enjoyment weekend. Tv9 had its Splish Splash 3rd Anniversary celebration @ Sunway lagoon. Me, Wany, and Liyana slept over @ Sunway Hotel to settle few things 2gether. Everything went so well as we enjoyed ourself there=)

Life is getting more serious each day...the work loads..gosh!! so much!!! i didn't have time of my own..what i do is make myself enjoy and fall in love more and more in what i'm doing ;) INsyAllah, one sweet day i'll be successful.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

News to Business Development

My life starting April have changed. I transfered to TV9 Business and Developement group on 1st April. Finally, I'm at the peak of my career target. All this while i wanted to involve in advertising line but i'm always end up in else where.hehe. That's life after all..we can set want we want to be but along the way we accidentally take a wrong turn. For me every turn i took before this make me more wiser..cos it gave me different colors and experiences in life. Now, I'm glad that i've found my route back specificly on my career wise. In terms of realtionship..hmmm..i've no comment bout it. Just stay still on what's going on till the right moment come where i've the guts to figure out and spoke out what's best for me, myself and I.

This Sunday, 19/4/09 will be TV9 3rd Anni!!! wheeee....cant really wait for it.heee

Friday, April 3, 2009

Missing..... >_<

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me. There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you all and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friends, it is with all my heart that I creat you a lil thank you notes to express my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold♥

Bitter hearts...

He gave the meaning to this empty world of mine that never did. Another love another time. As usual he came out of sudden into my life again and made a living fine. He fills my heart with very special things, angel songs and with wild imaginings.(oopss!) He just fills my soul and day with soo much love that anywhere i go I’m never lonely. I reach for his hand where I believe him will always there for me even though we are apart. This happen because the bond and the chemistry between us getting more and more stronger. I always questioning myself, how long does it last… Can love be measured by the hours in a day ?? I have no answers no but this much I can say I know I’ll need him till this love spark turn to a drop of tears.

Truly I cannot say, for never have I felt this thing called love... "So soon?" My mind asks, "Yes" it answers quickly with such surety as my heart assures me to let this man! My mind hesitates with slight fear of remembrances from companions of the past. But tell me...what is life if one cannot love and feel freedom to express that love? As I lie here drifting into the wee hours of the night I remember how you spoke gently to me the words... "That it would take time...time to love again...I put our photo that we took 4 years ago on my computer desktop"! "Why you always come out of sudden?" I ask over again. "How this thing that we went through did start and ended?" and "Where did these deep passionate feelings arise? Truly, I cannot answer... I only know what my heart feels inside... When we are together, there is a wholeness I feel of never before, unlike when we are apart... as if a part of me has been ripped away. But what I did is just go on with my life cos there are much more love to gives to people who deserved it.Yes, I agree... time my love...time. But in the meantime, I myself must let go to this calling of my heart and express these deep currents that flow as a massive stream inside of me...How can I know...This my love... could be my one and only... Time to love?........we never know………..

something that i ponder about..

Don’t find love, let love find you. I keep that phrase and believe it through out my 23 years of life. That’s why it’s called falling in love because i don’t even force myself to fall, i just fall and I don’t even planned it to happen. Once i accept someone for who and what they really are, they will surprise me by being better than i ever expected. LOVE is loving or accepting a person with all strength and weaknesses. Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man. When two friends fall in love they learn they are meant for each other.

When they fall out of love they realize they want to keep each other forever. Isn’t it? I keep finding time to realize that there is one person who means so much to me, for I might wake up one morning losing that person who I thought meant nothing to me. Despite, Love is seeing myself through someone’s eyes and finding myself in somebody’s heart. Once I have loved, I will always love. For what’s in my mind may escape but what’s in my heart will remain forever. Letting go has never been easy and holding on can be as difficult for me. Yet strengths measured not by holding on but by letting go. True LOVE doesn’t have a happy ending, that’s because true love doesn’t have an ending. That’s what I believe in. For that I keep on making a love story of my own.

One has said that Men would rather sacrifice love to conquer the world. Women would rather give up the world just to be with someone worth the sacrifice. For me, decision should not be the choice of your heart or mind but a sensible balancing of both. Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better left kept to our self, but love has its way of expressing itself despite the silence even though some said silent is golden. The happier the memory, the deeper it hurts. There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those I choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for me forever even if my glance remained elsewhere. It breaks my heart to see the one i love is happy with someone else…..but it’s more painful to know that the one i love is unhappy with me ;(

The Feeling Of Love Starts From The Eyes
But If You Try To Close Your Eyes
Love Turns Into A Drop Of Tear
And Remains In Your Heart Forever