Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Avon Products, Inc. launches Avon Voices, its first-ever global online singing talent search for women and songwriting competition for men and women in celebration of its 125th Anniversary. Avon invites people from more than 60 countries, along with its 6.2 million independent sales Representatives, to ignite a global movement through music.
A renowned judging panel of music industry leaders from around the world includes: Fergie, six-time Grammy award winner; legendary songwriter, Diane Warren; Natasha Bedingfield, Grammy nominated singer/songwriter; and Russian sensation, Valeriya. Highlights of the year-long program will include travel to exciting destinations for nearly 200 global contenders to receive professional coaching and Avon makeovers, and record performance videos.
. “Avon Voices will celebrate Avon’s heritage and our future, as we raise women up through beauty, inspiration and song.” - Andrea Jung, CEO and Chairman of Avon Products, Inc.
So..what are you waiting for?? hurry!!be the 1st to show ya true talent!
For more info and to register just log on into
Spread the words and love to all women yeah;)
An awesome video of me and my cpurse mates that i think can inspire others in such ways..hee..hopefully =)
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Back to square one. sick of handling things for big corporation and its time for me to work my ass out and lead the company together with my boss to another level of business. Oh yeah...i got lucky to handle all management accounts and work closely as one team with the directors. I love to lead and i consult others who needed...thats why i'm enjoying my new life. Advertising world as been part of my life since i'm a lil kid. I was amaze with super interesting ad on TV that brought me to work at TV station before...and i was groomed to be and client servicing before back in my interns years to deal with the real advertisers. And now i'm taking chances and opportunity that been given to me to lead the team of management acc together with my boss..
hope it will bring joy, experience and of course CASH$$! to me.....hehe. Never stop to always say Alhamdulillah for what You have given me all this while...and always pray for better future. insyAllah...
Part from i'm slowly build up my career...i'm actually kind of 'fallin' in love...last nite this kinda guy had made his 1st moved. I was shocked and impressed but guess what....i ignored him for the nite! inever one this feeling to interupt what i'm slowy trying to built up...but deep inside me i always wanted this kind of guy....but i still having this lil feeling that i might get hurt badly like what i've been through before this.......hmmmm....guess i've to deal with it!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Aku sadar, aku punya impian kalu dihitungkan tahun 2010 ni aku gak punya matlamat hidup. Yang aku tahu, i built up slowly my vision according to what i'm facing in reality. Aku kaget mau jadi Linda yang dulu...punya Visi dan matlamat terang-terangan gitu deh. Cuman, yang pasti aku tu mulain thn baru aku ngan jiwa kosong ..nah...maka nya the whole years seems empty to me....even thou there are several of wonderful occasion happening round me tapi diri aku ni bkn aku... aku ni palsu deh...palsu atas raut wajah yg sentiasa gembira tp pada dasar nyer aku kesepian, pura-pura kaya tp pada dasar nya aku gak sekaya yg dilihat....bohong pada character aku yg open minded tp emangnya aku ni kalut...Alhamdulillah..stakat ini aku kenal siapa aku yg gak bisa dusta pada janji aku sendri. Emang nya aku ni honest, cuman my honesty sometimes dipertikai kan oleh setengah pihak yg hanya lihat aku dr luaran trus mengritik aku bulat-bulat..tolang ya mas..kenalin aku dulu baru bisa ungkapin yg gak bener ttg aku!
nah...sekarang ini, its time for me to walk on my on way. Tanpa siapa2 yg bisa ngajarin aku or lead langkah aku nih. Cukup atas smua experience yg aku lihat and lalui slama aku bekerjaya. Klo dipikirin, hidup aku ni mewah...mewah dgn ngomong2 kosong teman2, mewah dgn persahabatan yg berlandaskan permainan semata-mata. Aku ni keletihan..hingga sampai satu tahap...aku tertanya2 suatu ketika dulu...ngapain aja anak kecil yg gak cukup bln dilahirkan akhirnya meninggal?? na....sekarang...dlm usia seginian baru aku sadari, emangnya idup sebagai khalifah di muka bumi ini amat berat! Bayi yg gak cukup bln itu sebelum diutuskan ke bumi, Tuhan bertanya apa beliau mahu gak berada dibumi....tp..bayi itu jwb tidak...kerna...di saat ini baru aku sadari mengapa dia gak mau berada didunia...... T_T ya ampun... bagi aku semakin kita mengharungi hari-hari dewasa semakin berat deh segala permasalahan yg timbul. Kini, aku harus stand on my two feet , deal with the world..all alone for now....it seems that no one could ever pass my way and gimme that tender guidance.........
Tanggal 2 november ini, tarikh yg menjadi titik tolak permulaan baru dlm dunia career aku! wmang aku impikan tuk berkerja di Advertising agency but rezeki tuk aku bekerja dia bahagian media udah tertulis dlm buku hidup aku. Trus...slama 2 thn aku di Media prima Berhad...suatu organisasi yg besar and terkenal. Posisi aku di kantor ku bkn calang2...Alhamdulillah aku bisa menamat kan 2 thn perjalan career ku dgn experience yg bisa dikatakan lengkap tuk aku menerusi impian aku ke advertising world...yeah..i;m talking about the real advertising world. Serius, ini ada suatu perkara yg aku sendri amat sukar tuk ungkapkan...sukar tuk aku terus terang sama boss yg aku tu ingin resign! but i did at last....and of course its not a easy thing to actually be face 2 face with my boss to deal with a resignation stuff!
i just did...Alhamdulillah..it went well..and its not an easy thing for my boss to deal with. Ternyata klo udah nekad tu, tiada persoalan bisa merubah hati aku ini. My boss kind of counter back, but.....dilihat penuh dlm mata aku ini punya visi sendri yg pingin ku kejar. Lalu, dia membebaskan aku untuk melangkah lebih jauh and meniti impian aku. Berbekalkan doa dan wawasan serta sokong dr boss, teman-teman sekantor aku bersemangat melangkah ke pintu hadapan dgn membawa segala pengalaman and metlamat ku yg ingin ku bentuk sendrian. Sekarang dunia ini..dunia ku...InsyAllah...suatu ari nanti, udah sampei waktu dan aku udah bersedia untuk berkongsi visi yg tersemat di hati ku, akan ku luah kan pada insan yg benar2 aku percayai....now, i'm rady to spread my wings widely...
Even thou, ortu aku gak berapa fancy aku tukar career, tp udah jelasin sama beliau aku memilih jln ku sendri..sampai kapan deh aku harus nuruti keputusan kalian..yg diakhir waktu nyer aku ni confused. Ya udah...aku gak mintak penjelesan dr km yg aku pinta is at least a lil blessing from u. Kerna aku percaya, klo doa ortu tu di berkati, InsyAllah, segala jalan rezeki yg dijanji kan Tuhan dtg dgn mudah...and aku tu bersyukur kerna tlah didik pada asas yg betul dan gak mungkin la aku bisa lupa diri..mudah-mudahan tidak. di doain aja la untuk aku yg very agressive ini...sebab utama aku mahu nukarin kerjaya itu terletak pf diriku sendri..gak siapa yg aku yaking mo dikongsi bersama....hanya Tuhan saja lah yg tau..........
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Description: Love triumphs over all for this sign, which is ruled by the heart and operates from this dimension too. Leo's are born fortunate. Charismatic and positive-thinking they attract not only an abundance of friends and opportunities, but manage to survive life's stormy times with style and good humour.
Once a Lion is committed to a relationship, they are totally devoted and faithful. Should their heart or trust be broken they never forgive or forget. When a relationship breaks down (even a long standing one) they can disappear into the sunset without a backward look. Leos can cut ties, and leave others heartbroken, but usually there is a good reason why they have broken a tryst. For a Leo, when a relationship is over, really over, it is over for good.
There are three levels of soul-evolution of the Leos. The highest is represented by the Sphinx; wise beyond their years and great teachers to others. The second is the Lion, King of the Jungle, ruled by ego but always protective and sustaining of those they love. The last is the Lion Cub, immature and undeveloped, frightened by anything new. These Leos cling to others (in the mode of the child not wanting to leave its mother's side).) They can't bear to be alone. No matter what level they have attained, all Leos are trendsetters, leaders and adventurers.
Their weakness is their pride. This is one sign where the saying "flattery will get you everything" applies, but be warned criticism will slam the relationship door right in your face.
By Athena Starwoman
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Yet, what really makes me happy is how we are still able to have conversations, share laugher and confide in each other as if the last time we met was just the day before. Like many people, i have made friends at different stages of my life.
The thing about me is that i usually have trouble moving on.Some of my friend's biggest memories of me from primary school had to be the last day of standard six when i was hugging my teacher and bawling my eyes out. Never mind, i was going to see many of these people in secondary school a couple of months later or that we would keep in touch but for me it was the end of era.
My feeling continued through many other stages of my life where during my secondary school i did attended various camps and workshops in my teenage years. It never got easier for me until I finished college and starts my career.
For me, Raya seems to be the same. I can feel that at this point of age, i'm 25 by the way....Raya doesn't seems enjoyful and exciting. There's no more feel of celebrating it with colorful new outfit..not that i used to. That very feelling seems to fade away with time. If i'm 15 perhaps i'll still enjoy my Raya that way. Not to say that very will go through this phase of life..maybe it happen to certain individual only. People say that, its about time we celenrate with our 'own family'...that what many of my friends said.
1st time ever, i didn't make my 'baju raya'. I did some recycle in my wardrobe and use what ever i can wear during Raya. But i got a pair of SEXY new shoe...couldn't get rid in buying new shoes...man..i'm just being a normal typical women here^_^ Lots of good things happen in the 1st week of Raya...and i'm so glad that i surrounded by such a great family and good friends. Guess what..i couldn't mention their names here cos its like i've a loooongggggg list of names..there a re good people indeed and i'm so thankful to God for making them be part of my life. Love*
I was all happy through out the 1st day of Raya till last Tuesday. I was a lil bit shocked when i received a text message from my sis saying that, Mama have to be admitted. Mama didn't feel quite good for couples of days but i tot is a normal fever. Till my sis brought her to Hospital and she need to be admitted immediately......Thank God the operation all done last nite. Alhamdulillah. And now i can see my face glow once again...... :) I'm so proud that i've been raise up in a wonderful family.....
Salam Lebaran..... :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
I’m a cat’s lover since i was a lil girl. My mom and dad doesn’t really fancy me adopt a cat nor play around with it. It is because i have a really bad sinus and too sensitive with cats. But which parent wouldn’t want to see her children upset because doesn’t didn’t get what she really wanted to. My last cat died cos got hit by a car. Ever since then, i never have any pet. Now with a comeback of Frosty, a white Persian + tabby cat i got it 3 days ago has open my heart to love this cute and beautiful creature once again. I wanted a cat as a gift on my birthday but it seems that no one knows my little wish.
The story began when i hang out with Amal and his band. Out of sudden, he pop up about cat for sales. His friends, Lela, who happen his senior in campus wants to sell his lil kitty to someone that can handle her cat well enuff. I said to Amal that i;m really looking for a cat rite now. So, Amal show me its pictures. Guess what, once i saw its picture..i fall in love with the kitty. He told me he llikes 3 month old. Awesome! Thats what i’m looking for. Really wanna have a kitty to train it nicely under my supervision. So, Amal brings me meet the owner, Lela. She seems like a nice cat’s lover. Very sweet in person and she can sense that i’m a responsible cat owner. Huhu..She held me the cat in my arms. OMG! Once she hand over the cat onto my hand...i carried away with an imagination..i feels like i’m holding my new baby! The cat is so WHITE and very furry! I look at Amal and i gave him a sign through my eyes..the car was really tame!! After a while,i hand it over to Amal..it seems that the cat notreally comfortable in Amal’s hand. Haha..The cat is only 3 months old. I felt she was too young to be away from her brood at that point, but Lela said it should be just fine.
Frosty is quite big for its age. I thought Lela must have been giving him loads of healthy food. He looked like a little puffball with stubby legs. You could hold him whole body in one hand. Yet, Frosty and I had and still have a bond of sorts. As I stated I'm not a cat person for quite sometimes, but Frosty always curled up on my shoulder when I sat on the couch and fell asleep. Unfortunately Frosty got a lil clingy a bit. I guess he just need sometimes to settle him self and get use to a new environment. He crawled under the couch cushions, under the pillows and mattress...anywhere soft and warm. And he couldn’t stay alone else he will meOoooWWWing really load.He really needs me to be there beside or near him all the time.Aww....
Ever since I got Frosty, he has always made it a point to develop myself to be more committed and responsible in taking care of him and be more sensitive on my surrounding, as if he put a meaning to this colourful life of mine
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
its been quite awhile i didn't cry like a lil kid...
my tears will come out when something/someone touched about family....
my world is my family....
how difficult my life would be without my family around..Gosh! i couldn't imagine it...
Somehow i feel like i'm too dependable on them..till my mom started to talked to me...
She looks really worried...who's gonna look after me if she's not around anymore...
Who's gonna take care of me? knowing that i'm lil bit hard to handle in some ways....
would someone make me happy as i am now...
And i started to cry....... i ran to my room...and tonite i'll be sleeping with tears pouring down...
Mama, sorry if i put u in such a hard time...
I realized now, i've to stand on my two feet and deal we everything as an individual...
Sorry for not introduce u to my last special boyfriend..u know him after i declared 'i'm no longer with him no more'...
I know how much u love to see me happy being with him...but the truth is.. i faked it..
Pretend everything is cool between us but actually it wasn't...
If mama would possibly understand what i'm going through, for sure i can see tears on ya sweet face...
But...i just dont like to see u cry nor to make u cry especially about me...
Trust me mama...i know how to lead my way..InsyAllah.... :(
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that "True Love" is boundless and immeasurable and overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger with each assault upon its existence.
Our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. You are my Charming Prince, and I am your devoted Princess. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be.
If there is still hope and moment to be arrives, I wish u would receive across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss. I just love you because I do. I can't change it. Its not my choice. I wish I didn't, but that's how love is. I can't say a word about you. I have to forget about you. I wish you didn't make it so difficult for both.
There are many things I need tell you, but I can't find the way. I can't find you. Your way of looking life is different from mine. I can't change it. Its not my choice. I wish I didn't love you. I can't forget about you. I just wish it could all work out like it once happened.
<3 <3 <3
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I was so excited to go for my 1st terakwih. I know that mama ususally will go with me. But this time around not even mama, guess what, my sister in law alson now walked together to the mosque stated behing our house. There we go one big happy family. To my surprise, everyone in my family somehow i can feel are so earger in welcoming this Ramadan. We actually have chemistry running round amongst us. Guess what? The whole family actually went for 'solat terakwih'..for instants it was wayyy tooooo loooong for my sister to actually go to mosque for solat terakwih. She always do that at home by herself. Only me and mom used to went to the mosque together.
As i stand besides my mom, there was a lady besides my mom who happen to be my mom's friend. I heard their conversation while i'm quitely sat down besides my mom watching the whole evironment. My mom's friend asked with whom does my mom came with? and my mom answered proudly with 'my daughter' as she pointed her finger to me. I straight away smile nad shake hands with that aunty. Then i heard she said something like this...
' Alhamdulillah...you actually came and brought along your daugther.How grateful you are..Your daughter seems sincere to follow you.' and then she smile at me..........geee...smilling*
As i'm smiling the tears in my eyes started to poured out. But i'm kind of hide it. I just dont like my mom sees me cying like a lil kid anymore. I believes that my mom knows that i'm strong enuff to stand on my own now. Crying for me is just another sign to show that we are weak...that is why i'll try not to cry in front of people ...So that we were praying solat terakwih together. As i was doing my praying my heart feels like i'm facing such a peaceful moment..and suddenly there was a drop of tears pouring slowly on my cheek. As i was reading the mother of all Surah, i can see the images of a person that i truely missed all this while...the person that i always look up for..the love that i always wanted..its the images of my late dad :( while at that time i was standing besides a women that are strong enuff to take his place and brought up such a wonder family in her own hands...she in my mom!! T_T God, there are nothing much i could ask...i still and always pray seeking for Your Bless in giving my mom a good health and happiness... If she's happy i'm more than happier......Through out terakwih i cried....cry cos of how thankful i am and blessed for what Allah created for me...I have such a wonderful mom indeed........
Selamat Menyambut Ramadan..and have a pleasant one this very year to me, family and friends ^_^ InsyAllah....
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Career wise I can say I'm so proud of myself to survive on my own in this so called cruel world. Everyday I'll make sure there's productivity in me...and I can see in a long run there's fortune waiting for me. If I can sustain what I'm doing rite now insyAllah it will shorten the route of my success and to a greater life that I've been dream of. I believes it will be easy if we isn't work by our own...isn't it? But well...what I've planned somehow doesn't seems to happen:( still I strongly get up and make every single things possible for me...even thou deep inside me always crashed n cry! T_T...only God knows what I'd been through. I always make myself think wisely and make sure I never ever complain what come across me. I might get this kind of life but maybe other even worst. So, I always appreciate what ever things that God had created for me. He loves me and that's why He send all the obstacles into mylife so I'll become more stronger and get the meaning of true human being.
What i want to express here is that i can earn lots of money by working on something that i'm good at and lives happily. We can search for money as much as we want and spent it like the whole world been made for us to enjoy the wealthiness! Travel with friends is a must for me as i love to discover different part of the world. I've been circle with a bunch of friends who is smart, generous, caring and adventurous. All of my qualities happen to be in my friends and that is why we all are really click and attached to each other in some ways. But something trigger me.......
what if.. its time for they to settle down?
am i gonna leave my life alone knowing that all this while i'm depending on family n friends?
Now let me stop all uncertainty that runs in my mind. Focus what my life is all about...knowing that there's no one yet to be specifically in my lonely heart. I've tried to serve and hold on to the love that been in me for quite sometimes but in the end I just realized that how much I believes there are love between me and the guy it just there and then...Unfortunately i always met a FULLSTOP. Aren't relationship not supposed to supposed to meet fullstop??i wonder*How much I cried I won't be able to get him back to me. For that I accept what kind of path God created for me..even thou its sickening but I always look at the bright side even its clear enuff said that there aren't any lights for me to be in a long relationship with someone! As for now...I sadly pronounce that I'm officially has an empty soul..... Success without 'LOVE' in our heart feel like we lives in a lonely world......
Monday, August 2, 2010
A vacation! With the planned all set up for about 2 months back..all done, I'm going to do something unusual, I'm taking a birthday vacation! So here we go!! I left on Thursday, July 29th, and back on July 31st . It's *conceivable* that its gonna be such a wonderful vacation as i’m going with 3 of my besties(all girls) plus there will be at least 9 out of 10 crazy plans awaits us. Therefore i would like to pronounce here that i’m almost went crazy whenever hang round with my besties. I thought i wanna update every single things that we did thru a web browser as we all are using BB and iphone, but don't count on it. This is our chance to get away. I never know what that means, every time it's different. My main objectives for this period are to have my very own moment enjoying my 3 perfect days with bunch of psychos & most beautifool ladies;) Do a lot of water sports since our friend, Sikin was very excited texting everybody saying that she just bought her new underwater camera absolutely for this Langkawi trip!
Our underwater production!whee....hehe
Guess what, our friend, Shara was so lucky to won a lucky draw and get her own canon compact camera a week before the trip. Everybody have their own compact camera for now...and..i don’t wanna miss a thing so i did bought a gift for myself 2 days before the trip. Its sounds typical for some people but yeah..its just a thing i think i really wanna have it for myself. A 2nd big present i bought for myself. Other things that we had planned is to lay back and do some talking non-serious stuff, partying(enjoy live bands) and visit(island hoping) with friends. Everyone else seems to enjoy every moment and i LOVE to see those sparkling smile in their face which make me happy to know that what I’ve been through couples of weeks ago make my life went up and down. Deep inside me, I know i’ll end my July with such an interesting and wonderful birthday celebration.
For that i would love to express my appreciation to my besties, Shara, Sikin and Leen to plan a trip to Langkawi. Even though u all knows how much Langkawi means to me personally...hehe. It isn't often that I say this, but I wanted to thank you for being such a good friend. You are always around when I need you, always willing to listen when I need to talk, and always ready to organise something fun when I need a break. You are one of the most important people in my life, and when I count my blessings I always think of you. I don't think I could have gotten through the last few years without you. Through the break-ups and career changes and how i actually move on and you all were always around to lend a hand and tell a joke. I appreciate that more than you know. I did my part and promised to baked u all brownies..and its happen on my special 25th birthday Hope its taste good as our friendship ;)
Now let us prepare our mind to be back to our REALITY LIFE and nganjing2 rakan2 through all the pictures taken ya;) haha. Love u! And roger if u wanna chill or...we just have to take a break for fews days from each other perhaps...i donno...hehe...3 days spend time with u ols was the BOMB!
I’ll get all pictures upload soonest...promise :0)
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Ya Allah...thanks for make me realized what i'm not supposed to face it. I just gotta loose a person who i claimed to be someone special in my life. The fact that very someone dont even deserve a place to be in my heart nor in my life. I know how to value myself and i dont wanna be like some another jerks that you used to manupulate them. Aren't guys supposed to treat and love women with full respect as women is a creature that created by God where they have a high rank beside God.What happen to the respect and love? I had a reason and answer to myself for what happen to me till i really eager to write this particular notes!
For real, this is just something that out of my mind..i never think that i will face such a traumatic phase of life. I'm pratically scared to fall in love back....fall to a wrong person where i always did. After all, life is like gambling our luck but yeah..still we are human, never failed in taking any risk in our life! I hate to say that I Hate someone so much..but what if the person make me said it. Guess what?? i deleted him entirely from my LIFE...as if me and him doesn't know each other. I barely do such things...but he just over the limits and i couldn't consider it something that can be tolerate about! to mention his name also its just disgust me........How foolish can i be when it comes to guys? as far as i'm concern, i always put both my feet on ground, keep believes in myself everything gonna be great for me but yeah..REALITY CHECK! things never ever gonna be PERFECT as we want it to be....God always have a better roote for the one He thinks deserve it. For that i always believes God has His special plan cater to me....and so with him...
Goodbye my Lust! I'm taking back my life to a starting point back again...to the basic here i come......
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Poet: Edgar A. Guest
I have to live with myself and so
I want to be fit for myself to know.
I want to be able as days go by,
always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand with the setting sun
and hate myself for the things I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
a lot of secrets about myself
and fool myself as I come and go
into thinking no one else will ever know
the kind of person I really am,
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect
I want to deserve all men's respect;
but here in the struggle for fame and wealth
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know that
I am bluster and bluff and empty show.
I never can hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself and so,
whatever happens I want to be
self respecting and conscience free.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
That little lesson has stuck with me ever since, and 5 years later I can remember almost everything about the what i said and make myself to stand positively in every situation: where I was, what I was doing, and the way this simple statement hit me. It was like a revelation, and something I've tried to live by. Every time I talk to older people, they speak of regretting not doing things. Very seldom does somebody say, "I regret doing this." But all too often they say, "I regret not doing that."
The more interesting thing is why people end up in a position where they look back and say, "I wish had..." The most common reason is fear: fear of taking a risk and failing, fear of being seen as odd, even fear of success, oddly enough, because we don't know what we'd do if our plans succeed. Those and most other common fears can be summed up in one, fear of expanding one's comfort zone.
People build comfort zones out of necessity. We are, after all, creatures of habit. We create routines, schedules, quirky ways of doing things, frames of reference through which we filter information, and little rituals that help us operate on a day to day basis. Without those things our comfort zones, we would be overwhelmed by everyday activities.
Even within our comfort zones, there are things that are distinctly uncomfortable, and that we avoid if at all possible. The more we avoid those uncomfortable things, the more uncomfortable they become. Something that you may have found mildly offensive early in your life can become very frightening later in life if you spend years avoiding it. Your comfort zone shrinks, and continues to shrink as you avoid more things. The shrunken comfort zone is why so many people remain where they are, even when given the opportunity to move on to something better. Their fear of the unknown overrides their desire for a better situation.
I am very comfortable trying anything new physically, and I love learning new things. I'm game to try my hand at anything to deal with emotion desire and technical expression. I'm not especially good, but I can muddle through and learn a bit in the process. Give me a physical or mental challenge and I'm quite happy to attack it. I can say I was raise up to become more and more competitive.
But I have my blind spots, too. I have a distaste for paperwork and bureaucratic routine that borders on the pathological. I'm perfectly willing to pay money a lot of money to have somebody else deal with those things. And my fear of emotional conflict quite likely is pathological. I have avoided conflict for decades. Today, even the thought of emotional conflict stirs up the "fight or flight" response in me like you wouldn't believe. The lengths to which I'll go in order to avoid conflict are astounding. When it comes to conflict, my comfort zone is very, very small. I've been working on that since I noticed a few years ago just how bad it had become, but I have a long, long way to go.
The sad thing is that I've known all of this about comfort zones for at least half my life. I've even noticed and commented to friends over the past few years that I've found it hard to face certain challenges. Things that I would have had no problem with even few years ago. And yet I've let my comfort zones shrink to the point that I spent few months avoiding some opportunities that were pounding on my door. I don't know why, exactly. Fear of failure? I had nothing to lose. Fear of success? Perhaps. Fear of the unknown of giving up my unclearly dissatisfying life and risking everything for the chance to be happy beyond all expectation? As much as I hate to admit it, that just might be the reason.
Whatever the cause, I'm going to regret not making the most of the opportunities that I've had in the last six months. But I won't stay on the regret or on the lost opportunities. For all the things I've done wrong recently, I've managed somehow to come out feeling better about myself and my better future than I would have thought possible. I will undoubtedly look back and wish for what might have been, but my focus is now forward, on what I can make happen!
All my secrets, dreams and virtue remain lock inside me,myself and I....
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I remember when, Abg ayul, faizal, adik and I watched Bujang Lapok with Abah, and Abah actually remembered every single sentences of the movie scripts and Abah did sang along while the movie played. And there we were so called angry with Abah cos what we want to hear was the actors not our talented father. That was so funny and we all made fun of Abah, but Abah were a sport and didn't get mad.
I always took for granted that Abah would be there, you and Mom to see me growing up turn to be a fine lady that Abah surely proud of.
And now that Abah are gone from us things will never be the same.
I wonder if Abah ever knew how much you would be missed.
I wonder if Abah ever realized how much you meant to all of us.
You were such a great guy and I will always remember you.
I will always tell people that even though you never got a joke, you made me laugh.
I will always tell people that even through all the hard times we went through you were always there and never abandoned us.
And I will always tell people you were my GREAT Dad, and that a child couldn't ask for a better one.
I love yo, Abah and I always will, I will never forget you and the way you touched my life.
And I will take you with me where ever I go.
The best part is, I'm so glad that I had your funny and bubbly character in myself that everyone tend to be easily connected to me:)
Happy Father’s Day, my dear ABAH!
With love and respect,
Your Puteri Bongsu, Linda
* how i wish to celebrate this father's day with you..... T_T God knows what it feels to be left with so much lack of a father's love....Gosh! stop crying....T_T
Sunday, June 6, 2010
What is a brother's place in a family? To a younger brother or sister, he may be a guide to help traverse the complicated path of growing up. To an older brother, a little brother may be seen as a tag along and pain in the neck. As much as siblings squabble when they are young, this is not a sign that they do not love each other. Most siblings would lay down their life for each other. As children grow up they usually find it easier to get along and relate to each other in rewarding ways.
Today is my brother's wedding day. This very day i will remember through out my life. He's the 1st brother and a 1st son to get married. I'm so glad that he proved himself as a wise and responsible man to me and the family. He might be small in size but knowing him personally he's much more bigger and wiser. I always look up on him and envy him in every bit of my life. Now, he been pronounce as a husband to his beloveed wife, Nur Ailanee who been sharing their lives together since their Uni days. They both are some sort like a Uni sweetheart...falling in love and went through their hard and fun study life. And at last, God brings Ailanee together into our happy family. Of course i am glad and happy but deep inside me i'm kind of sad in letting go my brother to someone else. Even my mom cried during his wedding. I heard she mentioned to my brother to take care of him and his family for the days to come. He is now a leader and my mom believes that he has the gut to managed his own family. After all, he's matured enuff to carry out such a HUGE responsibility.
The receptions at both, Ailanee and our home went pretty well. All relatives who came all the way from Johor, Singapore and Terengganu are so supportive to make this occasions such a wonderfull ones. I'm feeling so gratefull to see all the faces that rarely i met. Somehow in my happiness, I'm feeling lil bit ackward when i see his wife downstairs wearing her panjamas. Well, she usually hang out at my place back when she was my brother's gf...but now she actually his WIFE. oh! how time pass really fast...my brother always lying down at living room watching tv alone and there comes me who always start to chit chat about work stuffs..telling him my funny stories and sharing thought about some issues but now most probably there wouldn't be time for me to interupt him and his wife i guess... People meet someone and starting their life together so they tend to concentrate with their responsibility and spend most of their time doing things with their partner. There's only lil time left for unimportant stuffs such as chit chatting and sharing some funny stories...;( oh well...thats now aboout it....the main thing is I'm so GLAD THAT HE HAD FOUND SOMEONE THAT REALLY MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM...=)
For that brother, wishing u nothing but the best through out ya marriage life together. CONGRATS!!!!!! Love u, both;)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
I just realized that its half a year already. What did i do through the passed 6 months? Did i achieve my half year goal?things that i want?How bout my personal life...is there any changes?Seriously i dont even knowhow to answer it. To think back, i guess i had made myself to a stage where i think i should be proud of. In terms of career, it been so good so far...as usual i appreciate every moment of my life with blessed from family and friends. I can see the graph of my career growth is always on the move to the positive side. Alhamdulillah..maybe there are slightly ups and downs along the way..but thats a normal thing. The time we drop is what we call challenge and if we get through it and get back on the track thats what we call success. I'm looking forward for better opportunity for myself..which consider seeking for more side job opportunity. As for now, i'm happily working in a well known organization(Media)..and as for my part time..i did lots of things...trust me..i'm the one who always with plans and VEry verY hyper active. I do photography stuffs, fashion style and even dance coaching! Fuh! how could i possibly divide my time? wel..i just manage and make myself occupied at ALL TIME! Me = WORK,WORK,WORK! sounds stressfull..but i enjoyed it!
For that conclude y i'm STILL SINGLE! opppsss......Yes i am...even though how bz am i..i know how to cater my time for my love ones, myself and family. I'm good at it...its just that sometimes i find it its a lil bit too hard for me to please every single people. To make it simple, i make a vow to myself that I'm gonna take the next relationship seriously(if happen i meet someone). Not to say that my previous relationship i take it for granted...i think is bout time to think in a depth way......all my friends around me is getting marry..one by one i can say is either happily in relationship or well married! What am i doing here.....just turn officially single and now started to go back where is start...search for a new people....starts to know them..yada..yada...gosh! couldn't face it anymore,thou...probably i'll go for friends..thats my last resort! (couldn't believes it that i sounded so desperate!) hahaha....Whatever!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Last week dalam kesibukkan aku ni aku make my time to actually went out for ourdoor portraiture with my close friends. Teman aku sorank ni yang bernama Atiqah,who will get marry soon with Arip who happen to my close friend as well. Both of them actually teman yg aku kenal time study at MMU. Until now we close gile...like really2 close. stok yg menganjeng,pranked each other x der hal la...! Tiqah is the closest friend who 1st pronounced to get marry among all of us. yahooo....glad and soo bloody excited for her big day!!! nway, she requested me to take some of her pre-wedding pictures...with an open arms i'm so glad to!
I'm always with my own crazy and unique idea to came out with a classic gift for her wedding day. Instead buying her stuffs, i planned to just take one of her best shot with her future hubby and print it on CANVAS as big as MY WALL PICTURE in my room. probably u wont know bout that...its something like leonardo da vinci's painting on canvas. eceh! nak gempaq je kan...well.. Thats will be my major surprise for both of them...(hopefully menjadi la kan)...
with love and heart, i made this piece of art work for us to remember in the days to come....
Saat itu....saat indah untuk aku,dia dan kami....
Friday, May 21, 2010
I really wanted to see this Adam musical theater cos it has such an intresting storylines. The stories indirectly show the past, present and the future of Sylvia (main character) if she chooses to still marry the sleeping Adam cos he's not well.....
Sylvia spirals down an emotional roller coaster, as her inability to believe how lucky she been to find Adam now is confirmed. She moves through friends, family and strangers; their stories of life, death, and surviving provide comfort, horror and love. As for Adam, he is about the dangerous time we live in, of suspicion and fear of people and things we dont know. Its about compassion and strength and how these qualities can turn the bleakest days into one with light even if it is just a faint one.
Adam is about finding true love, and knowing that we can be very lucky after all....
A very great production team directed by Joe Hasham OAM, produced by Faridah Merican, written by Mark Beau De Silva and the wonderful casts. All the characters are so good from their own unique expression up to delivering the whole message of the play. Who ever watch this play i can say they are lying if they said that they didn't even cry atleast once through out the play. Its so touched and emorional yet there are slightly lil jokes here and there which will encounter back on the whole play for it not to be too heavily emotional.
The message is clearly delivered and i found it somehow had touch a lil bit on my life journey as well. It is a good play...and its still on till June 20th!! hurry! or u'll missed it.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Tadaaaaaaaaaaa.............we finally find this DISCOVERY MURNI! Actually, Si faisal ni la google bout this restaurant. Then got the address from one of the blog and he started to used his GPS using his Iphone. Not that hard pon to find this place..its somewhere Aman Suria, Petaling Jaya!..still we choose to used GPS else for sure we gonna end in up in some Kedai Kopi Cina. well..its located in chinese area. I'm not pretty sure whats the address is but i know its somewhere PJU near Aman Sunway( if i'm not mistaken la)
The place at last properly been set up. Kinda chill place to hang out..And we 3 enjoy our dinner 2hether while watching Thomas Cup!
Jalan PJU 1/3B
Sunway Mas Commercial Centre
Petaling Jaya, Selangor
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I am starting over today
All good things are coming to me
I am GREATFUL to be ALIVE
I see beauty all around me
I live with passion and purpose
I take time to laugh and I play every day
I am AWAKE,ENERGIZED and ALIVE
I Focus on all the good things in life
And give thanks for each and every of them
I am at peace and one with EVERYTHING
I feel the LOVE, the JOY and ABUNDANCE in every moment
I am FREE to be MYSELF
I am MAGNIFICIENT in human form
I am the PERFECTION of life
Hence, I am GREATFUL to be....
ME, MY SELF, and I!
The SynopsisIt's 1954, and up-and-coming U.S. marshal Teddy Daniels is assigned to investigate the disappearance of a patient from Boston's Shutter Island Ashecliffe Hospital. He's been pushing for an assignment on the island for personal reasons, but before long he wonders whether he hasn't been brought there as part of a twisted plot by hospital doctors whose radical treatments range from unethical to illegal to downright sinister. Teddy's shrewd investigating skills soon provide a promising lead, but the hospital refuses him access to records he suspects would break the case wide open. As a hurricane cuts off communication with the mainland, more dangerous criminals "escape" in the confusion, and the puzzling, improbable clues multiply, Teddy begins to doubt everything - his memory, his partner, even his own sanity.
A beautifully shot, visually stunning and very tense psychological thriller. The visuals combined with the discouraging score create a very frightening and claustrophobic experience that keeps the film floating for it's lengthy 2 and half hour run-time.
It's very talky with lots of down-time and while the writing is certainly competent, it can drag at parts. Even this, however, is saved by the excellent performance by Leonardo DiCaprio.
The film's failing is in its textbook cop-out "all in his head" ending. I thought it was so obvious that that was the case that when it did happen, I was shocked and for the remainder of the film I was waiting for the second twist. It may be clichéd and one of the interesting twists in films but it's used with more intelligence and depth than usual here. But still... it's hard to believe that such great talent couldn't produce something more original and intelligent.
Much of things that really make the movie enjoyable if u watched with bunch of your CRAZY FRIENDS!!!! i did.........and we end up even more crazier.LoL
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Shaz wanted to watch Night Date..but i was eager to watch It's complicated! Really wanted to watch this movie ever since i saw its preview 2 months back...And yeah! I WATCHED IT AT LAST....hahaha. Guess Shaz being so kind to actually follow and stick the movie i choose. haha. To think back what shaz been through i guess this movie its a perfect answer for her..in another words she will get her own very answers to her personal problem that she's facing right now..erk...about a year maybe....At least i'm being a nice friend to help her figure out..hmm more or less...hee. At the same time i'll figure out as well for my own;)
I'm so adore and admire Merryl Streep acting. She's so into her character...wonder what and how am i supposed to face if that very lil prob come to me. Oh no...divorce no a lil prob,thou..its MEGA HUGE prob! cos i cant even face break up..can't imagine if i'm facing a Divorce. aww!~ Lord...put me away from that particular disaster.Amin. hehe...oh yeah..btw...i'm not marry yet but what the hell i've been thinking...^_^ Seriously, after all i find that its kind of cool to have an affairs with your ex-husband..not to mention that i would do such thing but when things get lil rough in another end we tend to over look what we missed in the past. At that particulat time, if we hit at the right moment we may get the 2nd chance if not..BoOmM! we blow everything out! and thats will be the end of everything...;(
Great movie. Awesome Storyline. Good acting and BEST COMPANY(Shaz & Wani);) xoxo
Monday, April 12, 2010
Dura who's the one really eager wanna meet them..well, she work far away @ Penang thou. There are lots of stories to catch up with them..as for me..i just met bear 2 weeks ago..thats was just an accidental meet up where by he happen to be in Pavilion and so do i. hehe...
Today meet up was at Starbucks,Great Eastern.Janji nak jumpe konon nyer kul 3 la..planned by Dura. Knowing Dura, she sometimes can be pretty punctual. So, i made myseld to be there at 3pm! guess what..i forgot that our meet up involves the 2 heroes who always famous with 'DELAY'! hahaha....they all came round 4...and the one who planned it came round 4.30pm!huh....guess that very part didn't change them all....lol
After spending time with them..i'm heading to LOOK OUT POINT AMPANG!! celebrate sikin's birthday. actually its a SURPRISE for her..since me and shara cant make it for SINGAPORE with her this week. We came out and planned something really special....and we did pretty awesome. She imppressed! yay!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Still, deep inside me...i'm missing to hang round with my besties. Oh ya..i did starts my early Saturday buzzing Tiqie since i'm going for Doctor appointment at Shah Alam. Then, she invited me to come over to her house and have breakfast together with her...well..the best part was i actually helping her out in doing some stuffs for her wedding...i feel good in helping her.x
Back home i MARATHON GLEE SERIES..yay! finally i settle ddown doing my fav thing when ever i'm at home- WATCHING SERIES ON MY BED!!!! its like a marathon...and its time for dinner. i went dinner with 1st with my ever fav guy and after that shoot to Subang Air port to fetch Dura. Half way to airport, DD called me and asked to chill out together at Cangkat. And all by besties gonna be there has well..........God what could i say more...I"M SO LOOK UP FOR THIS TO HAPPEN! missing ever moment of us..hangin round till late nite just chit chating and throw some funny jokes that we can laught together..So, there was me,Dura, Didi, Reena,faiz and one new girl that ai brought along, Nadia=) we spend our time at Werners..PERFECT PLACE!
This is the moment that i've been missing all this while...and i'm glad that my weekend had been cheerish with such a sweet lasting things i'll remember(since we all still young and not tend to get marry sometimes soon)hehe....
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
10.4.01- Last weekend i really had such a mesmerized trip. As usual the whole adventures plan was Shara’s idea. This feller is the closest buddy i have whenever it comes to crazy stuffs. It was her company, Utusan Media trip...ermm..which i donno what’s the purpose to having such trip. bUt yeah...knowing me..i’m up for everything to full fill my time with a good activities. So, there i go joining Utusan media to Kenyir Lake.
How do i get into this trip and stuck with Utusan Media people?? Well..the story goes something like this..Shara called me about a month ago saying in an excited mood of her..u know she and her HAWT FREAKING STORY whenever she called me. But this time not about those GUYS of hers. She was mentioning about having BREAKFAST with ‘PADUKA BAGINDA TENKU PUTERA of TERENGGANU’(without mentioning his name)....Sshara was really excited...and she choose me to company her. On my side, i felt honour and so pleased. (but still have a 2nd thought on this particular thing)..seriously i thought another prank of her. Somehow i felt it’s a sincere offer from her. Without thinking further more..i straight away say YES! I wanna follow u.....to think that i’ve no plan yet for that particular date.
And so the day came. WE push off from KL round 11pm. Promised to meet her up @ 9pm at her house..but yeah something came about and i reached at her crib round 11pm.hehe..almost 11pm i think....hee. Usual thing to do..i met her mom,sis...the whole family instead. Huhu...so..bermula ladetik perjalanan we both to Kenyir, Dengan harapan tinggi sgt ni tuk breakfast with Tengku di Istana! Shara was thinking it might be Tengku Mizan..i’m like helloo...that Tengku Mizan is currently the AGONG for god sake..why must he entertain us and most of all having breakfast with media...hmmm...but i keep that tot of mine in me je.
Fast forward....We end up sarapan kat Istana singgah in Terengganu je. Hahaha...hangan2 si shara ni nak bergambar sakan depan istana Sultan Terengganu x kesampaian.Yg plg best shara and zetty siap google ni Istana Terengganu..hahahha. Tak pe le...asal ader nama Istana ok le tu kan:p then nak jd kan cite...15 all of us ni kena stay on House boat on the Kenyir River!!! Sumpah 1st time buat benda2 ni smua..and its QUITE AN EXPERIENCE TO ME!!!! 3 days on house boat tinggal impact to myself...well..u can see the effect its on my skin tone,thou! I’m well cooked! SUNBURN weiiiii.........and secondly i got to experience ala2 deep fishing la.hihihi.....Shara and me always the one yg kechow and luar kawalan. People seems tired to handle us i guess....hhaha.