Saturday, January 23, 2010
Well..let God decide what best for me. If God send him just to be my friend i'm fine with it...and if he meant to be as my future Husband, i'm more that happy. InsyAllah....hehehee ^_^ only person with a nice character package with a good family background r the only one who can buy my heart=) cos i aint no a typical materialistic girl..nah ah! no i"m not............
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Right now i donno who to blame and to be angry with. I dont wanna blame my self or even hate myself..i did that b4. Enuff of me scolding myself all this while just to pleased other people. I'm gonna hit that road 2moro..present as i know all the programs at my finger tips.And YES i will show that within a nite i manage to install what ever i can into my naturally high memory spead (my brain)!!!! fuh!!....lega skit dpt lepas kemarahan...........>_<.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Its hard for me to tell you how i feel, because no one in my previous relationships has wanted that. Not that i know..And if they have, I've been afraid to tell them because i was too afraid of being hurt as much as i'm afraid of loosing. Please bare with me, I'm working on it. I will slowly be able to tell you how i feel or what i'm thinking. I read this quote today and it's made me think.
"The best way to love is to love like you've never been hurt".
That very quote fits my situation 100%. I keep dwelling on the past and what everyone else has done to me. After reading that i realized i cannot be with you and be happy and continue to dwell on what other guys have done to me. I'm seeing you now..I'm with you. Not them. I need to concentrate on making you happy. And letting you make me happy. Up till this point you've been different. I know you care for me and want to be with me. I am sorry I've doubted that. There has not been a moment in the last 8 weeks where i have doubted any feelings for you.
You walked into my life and totally turned it around. I was so depressed and torn up about what had happened to me in the last year or so. I was nearly ready to give up and stop believing. You gave me the hope that i needed to keep going on and strengthen my believes once again that there are still rooms in someone heart for me. I am so grateful for knowing and having you in my life as for now. I've been waiting on someone just like you walk into my life. Thanks for open up my lil tiny heart making a room to be loved and care once again.
One last thing that i really and wanted to tell this very someone but have not been able to bring myself to do so.....that i'm starting to fall for him each day..hmm...will wait for the right moment i guess..^_^
Actually this weekend is such a sad weekend for my close friend..which somehow effects me more or less pretty sad gak la. She went through a hard time and at last she broke up with her BF. seriously..its a horrible things to happen in one life! I know how she felt right now....and i always lend an ears to my dearest friend when ever they wanna share their feelings or what not. The funny part was not just my girlfriend told me whats going on with her and her bf.. his ex bf also contacted me at the same time. I'm like a middle person who donno how,what and who to blamed and pampered! All i did was giving the same exact advised to both of them. I know both of them pretty much. We normally do stuffs 2gether even back when i've a bf. When i broke up..they both was the one cheer me up..give me faith to raised again. And i did. Now i guess its a pay back time...they really need me. So i here i'm trying my best as possible as i could to makes things easy for them. My dear Wani..i can feel such pain in you right now..u were all confused. but remember this..u did what u wanted all this while...and i believes that u'll become stronger each day to faced the real world back. Its just a matter of time to get back the happy and bubbly mood again in your life. And i'm as friend will always support from behind, give full happiness till you can freely walk by ya own again..just what u did to me the time when everything seems gloomy and dark. I still remembered, its a hard time for me back then to actually moved on after broke up..i faked myself that i'm strong but the fact that i always cried all alone in my bed room... when i look at you i can see the sadness in your eyes. its just that waiting for the tears to drop T_T you'll be just fine as much as your ex does. Dont worry too much. Me and others always there to be ya shoulders to cry own and even lend u an ears. Be strong and Be good. There much more colorful things awaits u..........And i cant wait to see the shinning smile on ya face once again....and a chicky playful face u always gave me when ever i teased u;) Here is my Last words..i'll pray nothing but the best for u and Tone as well..u guys are meant to be just for a lil while..but its all Gods will. If God says that he's the one for you so he is.....Love u both! alamak..wa x der la plak pic si wani ni ngan Tone...ada but kat dlm otak aku ni! hehe...so..below is my dearest Wani.......tgk la dia membuli aku time keja!hihihi.....
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
My beautiful sayangness....
Izni + Ainul + Linda (we all dok blakang abg Ajai!!) LoL......me and my happening friend,shara
Cerita cam ne we all leh duduk blakang abg ajai actually panjang..and its totally DAMN FUNNY! well..i reserved it to my self and to those who happen to know the story la kan.hahahaha. Dah la sebaris ngan mamat gile sorank ni..Awal plus plak ngan si ainul kan...ada je benda pelik and funny dorank buat! but seriously i had SooOoOoOoooOo MUCH FUN!!
Friday, January 8, 2010
Ok..the fact that actually i just wanna blog about what happen through out my day 2day!! I can say that..2day was the finest day for me.:) and i'm etremely happy bout it. Even thou early morning there are lots of works to be seattle urgently..but i'm pretty good to managed it. Despite of all the works..i'm still on my FREAKING FB..busy fighting with shara and sikin comments on OUR new YEAR PENANG VACATION!! hahaha...then suddenly i got a called from SHARA! asked me to go out for lunch with her! Straight away a Yes Yes Yes to me! Short and sharp msg replied i got from shara..'at lobby another 10min'! hahaha...knowing me and shara's style..we both always came out with last minutes unplan PLAN! So, i went la..'wani jom gi lunch ngan shara..kita kluar awal'! hahhaha...and obviously si mangkuk wani tu pon ikut je la kan...;)
so there we goes..3 of us having our lunch at TTDI! Si Shara ni order le set ala2 chinise..x padan kecik..nafsu makan bkn main BESAU! I had one of her set which is the Jasmine Tea..ummMm...thats so my choice of Tea! Shara ni saje nak menganjing aku dia pon panggil la abg waiter ni refilled kan Jasmine tea...so aku pe lg..oone shot la jasmine tea ni. then kali kedua nak mintak refilled shara menganjing plak abg waiter..ada ke patut dia soh letak the whole refilled Jag tu kat meja we all..hahahhaa. (we didn't noticed that actually that abg waiter listen to shara jokes)...lol. but later he came with 3 'beer glass' filled with Jasmine Tea! hahhahahahahaha.......apa lg kluar kan BB took pichas la out of it..'Happy our at this hour (1.30pm)'!....and i was like..yammmm SehhHHhh!!!....(all the chinese look at us!) hahahhahaha...
Mlm hari lagi besttttttttttttttttt!!! Ne yO yaw......best la.hehe. ^_^
Sunday, January 3, 2010
To excell on my career wise where i think i accomplished my vision to be in Media Prima top management group. Every now and then I always thank god for giving me changes and making myself stay stronger in facing the such a tough career. And of course i always pray to God that i will strike the best as i could to stay as productive as i could! Alhamdulillah...everything seems so great for me.
I happen to had such a great loving boyfriend. And how i felt blessed to be with him even thou just lil while. And my resolution was to be in relationship with him as long as i could....and dream to be with him FOREVER! but its a sad thing for me when all i wish and dream died half way.........
To be more responsible to my beloved FAMILY and friends. Alhamdulillah...i did everything pretty good. And they all noticed the changing in me. Thats a good start for me to develop myself in becoming more responsible and committed person in the future.