Back to the Old days..........

The day before we left for ‘lebaran’ trip to JB I know this would be such a interesting trip after few years didn’t managed to go back to my mom hometown. Even though just 6 of us can make it we still go for it. My younger brother can’t make it cos he’s gonna face his Uni exam tomorrow..so he thought that he’ll study over the weekend. But yeah...only god knows what his doing..la la la. And my brother gave such an unrealistic reason...he’s working over the weekend! Like Hellooooo...i’m working same organization as him..and I know what’s on his side. For god sake..[eople don’t really work on the 1st weekend on festive month! And this probably gonna be his last Raya with us...next year he’ll get married. Deep inside me, I really wanted the whole family turn back to where we usually spend our Raya..at least for once! Well....times change us all....

We stopped and had our dinner at KFC. Cos our lil ones, Sophie, really love KFC potato wedges! There the lil ones all got messed up playing with her patato wedges and my sis got to clean everything up before we went on the road. Yep, nothing else standing in the way. Fortunately, we headed out for lebaran trip at Night. After 4 hours of driving and stops...And at last we arrived at my mom home town. It was really dark at the village..only can hear sounds of some ‘cengkerik’ buzzing. And there wasn’t any ‘pelita’ light up like those days we used to see round my Tok Mat's house. To my surprised there wasn’t any feeling of Raya for me..........But as i looked at my grandma face..i felt that...This is A Raya Moment! Those ‘pelita’ wasn’t my thing anymore.... all i need is a blessing and forgiving from my eldest...

Everybody grow up really fast. And poor thing for Sophie didn’t really experience what we felt during Raya time those days. It was such a happening Raya Moment with pelita all around and there was 'bunga api' session with siblings and cousins...aww!~ I believes she enjoyed on her own ways;) Well, this lebaran i realised something, there are so many responsibility in every single day that we faced. I saw my sister and brother in law always take turn among them to entertain her lil sophie cos always crying and the one that needs attention most of the time. When I saw that i felt really tired...tired for what my sister facec right now but unfourtunately my sis seems to enjoyed it instead! Gosh...seriously, I love to have my own baby one day..but as for now i think i couldn’t face a HUGE responsibility like my sis did! Love kids but not for now i guess... ( i was on tears whenever i remembered and i saw my sis with her kid..pity myself)

And generally enjoying each other's company while enjoying my mom Home town!!!! =)

Raya!! yeah.....Raya!wheee....

As I wait outside the shopping mall this morning, I see families were so excited choosing a colourful and beautiful “Baju Kurung” (traditional Malay clothing) in matching the whole concept of one family and I see children running and laughing everywhere in celebration of yet another month of Syawal to come.For me, I’ve always associated this day as a day to make amends, a day to seek redemption and forgiveness from those around me.

My grandfather… My grandmother… My father… I remember those who have passed away… It seems that my family is getting smaller as the years go by. But in those years when someone passed away, we greet the coming of someone new. After my father passed away, my sister got married. And welcome my brother in-law into my family and then.. my niece was born. Soon my brother will get married and it goes on and onWith all these memories… I have a feeling deep inside my heart of those whom I have possibly hurt or disappointed in the past. Will I ever seek their forgiveness? Will I ever be forgiven?

The answer is not clear. And that is what troubles me most of the time…Will I have enough time to say I’m sorry… before it’s too late… So my dear friends, this ‘Lebaran’ i’m seek for your forgiveness and let us make this ‘Lebaran’ such a wonderful days to all of us. Forget everything what’s in the past, and welcome the truly white cloth in our relationship and friendship.

‘Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin’:)Enjoy!~

TV9 at KedaH

Last weekend we, TV9 was invited by Koperasi Pekan baru, Alor Setar, Kedah for iftar and give away 'bubur Lambok'! Achap from Kawan 9 cruiser lead through out the whole trip. He put so much effort from transportation, finding a place for accomodation up to making a big success for Bubur Lambok events! BRAVO!!! We arrived at Alor Setar round 6 something. Check into the hotel then went out for iftar at Achap's home. His family welcome us so warmly. There as a lot of food been ready for all of us...we feel really blessed and thankful to them who cooked for us. Oh yeah...at the same time..i text Akmal, my Uni's fwen. Whenever i go to Kedah..he's the one i can think of cos he lives in Sungai Petani...even though if i'm in Penang i'll contact him for sure.hehe=) For our 1st day of Iftar at Kedah, Achap's family served us with Home Made Nasi Tomato...and they all welcome us with this one 'kuih' that i'm not so sure what is it...but i ate that kuih a lot ok! i just love to try new things...and it happen tasted really nice. According to achap, its a ritual for his family to made that very kuih when one of the family member return home after long time been apart=) how sweet was that aite:) so freaking sweeeeeeetttt ok;) After we had our Iftar....this was a fun part! we played firecrakers and 'bunga api'! I had so much fun.....its been so longgggg i didn't felt that way..it seems that just yesterday i played with my siblings where we used to play 2gether during 'Raya' time...fight over firecrackers..ahaha..it so remind me back of my childhood life.huhu

So, after chilllin at achap's crib, we got back to Regency Hotel. I was placed in the same round as Wani. As usual la, if girls sharing a room we sooo gonna do the pillow talk + gossiping;) we had a great talk till we both fall asleep.....Wani woke up early for sahur, but i choose to sleep till the next morning=) hehe...Next day, its time for us to make 'bubur lambok' with koperasi's people. We cooked 3 big 'belanga' at Pekan Rabu to catter round 1000 people. Who said make bubur lambok is easy? well..i've to say that its really...really HARD! not to say that i donno how to cook...but yeah...to get the real taste, its really hard! the process took roughly 6 hours...mixing all the herbs, boild the water, cut off all vege..uh! there are lots of process...huhu. but yeah..we tried it after all and end up great! so..you guys should try! its the whole new experience,thou=) LoL. And yeah..our cute lil LG winner, was the one got bullied to do Bubur Lambok by her own! pity her....but i believes she's a spotting girl nway;) i actually help her out=)other than cooking, we went shopping at pekan baru. Farah bought 'Baju Kurung' for Raya...wani trying so hard to find one for her..but she didn'y managed to......i'm the one who be their fashion consultant most of the time...cos i did shopping with mom rite before starts fasting month;) well... that me..like to shop in advance.LoL.

@nd Nite in Kedah is MUCH MORE FUN! Akmal from Sungai Petani came down to meet us up. And he had promised me to bring me to the best place to eat Nasi Kandar 'TERBAIK' (according to him la)..:p and seriously..that was my 1st time eat nasi kandar....SUPERB oK! btul la ckp si akmal tu....MMG TERBAIK! and he even said..once u eat it...u feel wanna get married to 'org Utara'!! and its a BIG YES,thou! hahaha....the taste is really nice...i dont really eat rice...but i just fall in llove with Nasi Kandar Royal!=) ...(mandramm ape la dia guna tu i wonder!) haha..There was akmal, safuan and akmal 2nd...wani, farra and me! we smua MElantak ok...then after mkn nasi kandar..i feel like going round2..just wanna see how kedah nite life looks like...but unfortunately its ramadan month...everything are dead at 10PM! so..akmal came out with a plan..Safuan came out with a plan..going shishaing...and i'm the only one say YES! lets GO!...then....both of my colleagues agreed! huhu..so we went to Jitra. Guess what..Jitra wasn't that far from Alor Setar..its like PJ to Cyber..only 45 mins thou! SEmpoiii kan kan=) VrOOmMmm! tadaaaa....we were in JITRA, KEDAH! as we entered this one area..it has a strech of stalls selling stuffs for Raya! me..and all the gurls look at each other i screemmmmm...hahaha..cos this is what we are looking for..wani since she didnt get her baju raya yet...she was really earger wanna go shoppin at Jitra=) So..the boys enjoy shishaing outside..while the girls busy looking roound at Aunty Yang's boutique! I make friends with aunty yang till she tot that me and farra is TV9 personalities! CRAP! but yeah.cos of that we managed to get discount for the cloths that we bought! My Baju kurung prize supposed to be RM595..but managed to get for RM400! gosh! how cheap is that! The Baju realy fit me nicely. Aunty even take a photo of me and farra=) Cool gile ok aunty yang!hahaha....and guess what?! we spend almost an hour at aunty yang's boutique...i even ate lots of her raya cookies on guest table.hahahahaha.....Finally i bought 1 baju and so did Farra..Only Wani didn't;( cos happen that all clothers didn't fit her so well....or maybe she was lil bit choosy:p hehe
That nite...we all had fun till 3AM 2gether with a very new people we actually know...Two words for Kedah peeps..U guys are so FRIENDLY and NICE! 2 thumbs up for u ols=)

NAK RAYA wOOooO!!!!

PLayfoOL me and Sofie

Sofie and Me.....this how we have fun bullying wach other;)

Well, its been quite a while i didn't play round with my one and only lil angel, Sofie. She's going to be 1 year old soon on 17th September. How time flies really fast.. I remembered the day she was born. The night me sis wanna delivered, i came down to see her at hospital right afther work. She been hospitalised for 2 days before the delivered. And i was so eager and excited to the max where i actually came down each day to see my sis. She always welcome me even though i know she was in real pain..there i was making a stupid jokes and telling her some funny stories what i had been through out the day..just wanna get loose some of her pain.LoL!

The nite my sis told me that the baby will come probably soon....it was 1 in the morning. Guess what..i'm still at hospital with my work attire. My brother in laws asked me to go home and he'll text me once everything done. But i refused to. After awhile the doctor came to see me telling me that only husband can wait at hospital....so there i was living my sis and her husband in the deliver room...;( i got home and still waiting for teh good news...till i fall asleep.hehe..guess i;m so freaking tired that time. As i woke up...i open my phone there are nums of missed calls from my sis's phone. huhu...and i got a msg telling her healthy Baby Sofia was born!!! i screemmmmm out loud that morning and i accidentally came late to office..haha. but yeah..who cares getting late to office when we actually happy with the good news of the day aite;) haha

(Kak yan her adorable daughter,Sofia)

so, my lil Sofie...what would i give to you on your 1st birthday??hmmmm....your 1st birthday its like my 1st time giving present to a KID! cos yeah..ur i my 1st niece for god sake...hahaha...seriously i donno what to get her...i think she got everything from he mom and daddy..i even quarrel with my lil sofie on teddies that her grandma baught for her.haha...nah...i'm just a big bully in my family,thou...soon u gonna have lots of fun as u grow up with your Aunty Linda;)

Yellow Cab Pizza..at last;)

Guess what?? Its been almost 3 weeks all muslims been fasting. Its such a mellow month but Alhamdulillah so far so good i went thro it...and yes no 'ponteng' yet:) The sad things about this ramadan, i had a lil time to break fast with my family...so far 3 times only and i didn't had a chance yet to go ' solat terakwih'. Well, life is getting busy each day for me. Every day i have to break fast with clients and all.

Last weekend, i did something crazy thing. i had such a different and DARING weekend. I turn myself into Blondie!!haha..I'm kind of boring with my hair color,,used to have it on brown,redish and also blond before...its been a while i didn't touch up myself. Its time to transform! After dying my hair that Sunday nite, i came down to rasta! A place i used to chill almost every nite...there was my beloved dura, and my macho guys, Didi,Ai, Faisal and Arip! They wasn't realy noticed the changing of my hair color..only dura did. Well..cos guess it was too dark to see it at nite.hehe.

Linda with a Fav pizza of the year.......whee...(Shahril yg ajak mkn pizza yellow cab ni!)

Next day, as promised..i went out with Shahril, a long lost fwen of mine, and we both tried out 'Yellow Cab Pizza'!! What i can say..it was awesome!! Totally awesome! And this time shahril noticed it....cos below the sun light is sooo freaking obvious Blond! hahahaa....None of my family members like it..my mom and my sis especially. They said they cant see me in this hair colored. I didn't even look like 'Linda'...and i'm like lil bit blur here...what does it mean by that??

So, i dont want to heard my mom feeling and i know how much she wants me in my dark hair again..cos its near 'Hari Raya' nway..she really concern bout what our relatives gonna say bout me....LoL. What to do...so i turn back to 'Linda' that they used to see...hehe

After i colored my hair...Many people said that i looked nice with blond hair do. damn!~ ;( (:

Berganti hati..beralih arah..

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I dont Love you.....but actually i always do..

I Don't Love You lyrics

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing
I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up While you can Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you Like I did Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday"
I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday
I don't love you Like I loved you Yesterday