Its the end of us...- 26/11/08-30/05/09

Its a sad thing after 6 months been through 2gether as couple. All the ups and downs we faced. And i realised and so did he that we do love each other but there are so many emptiness in oneself. We couldn't even figure out own our own. At last, we seat down and talk what best for both of us. I'm kind of disappointed bout what had happen cos all this while i tried my best to give the best out of my self. But i didn't see from his side. Maybe its true..God send him into my life for little while. I took it as faith. After all this what we call life. He text me last nite saying...

dear Linda..
I'm sorry for acting so cold lately. Its not that i got issues with you or wat.NOPE. not at all. U've been so nice to me all this while. how r u nway? i hope u're doing fine and great as always. let me be frank with you n to be honest lately each day i feellike i'm loosing you..its like i'm walking away. I dont know why....but the feeling is not as straong as last time. Maybe u're right..i've changed but i'm not sure wats wrong. I've been trying to get myself into dat feeling towards u like last time..but still i couldn't find. Its like looking for an answer that the question doesn't even exist. Maybe u're rite ..we r wasting time here..i'm sorry, u can hate me if u want to..i got nothing againts u..gid nite linda. Wish u nothing but the best n take care. This is my good bye..linda roos.


what a lonnnnnngg SMS he send me. Everything reveal at last. what i strongly hold all this while cracked and dropped. So, i did replied his sms that makes him wanna meet me up 2day. We had a good chat and discussion on what happen between us..i just wanna clarify those that been stucked in my head like long time ago. I wasn't sure is he the one i wanna end my life with or should i just keep on waiting for him to change to a kind of guy which i can look up for? i donno...cos all i know i did my part as a responsible and good gf for him. respectful, honest and committed ..all been done... yeah..maybe its true what people told me...if he wants and really into me he'll accept me as who i am...not changing me to someone else. I noticed that like loong time ago at the early stage of out relationship that we wasn't doing so well..cos always miss communications along the way... So, we decided to end this with a good understanding chat between us.Just two of us....meeting up at the same place we used to have dinner 2gether..the spot that our 1st love sparked but now...remain as memories...

Thanks for giving me a room to be loved in your sincere heart..sorry if something that i did hurt u and sorry not being a GF like what u expected. I had tried to serve u the best as i could...Wishing the best for myself and so for u My Moo Moo, Shac.

The Last Special note i gave him....

Dear Shac,

First of all, i would like to say sorry for what i’ve done with or without your acknowledgements. And thanks to for being part of my life for just a little while. I’m not very sure what the problem was as much as you didn’t really know the answers is. Well, true love hears what is not spoken, and understand what is not explained, for love doesn’t work in the mouth nor the mind, but in the heart.

Sometimes i even asked myself, what did i do to deserve all this? To think that i have everything else, I get what I want and give the best out of myself. Then i realized it was YOU, i can’t stay longer with you and too bad our love was meant to be for a while. I can’t blame you for not learning to love me more as much i can’t blame myself to just stay and giving more hope to you. I’ll keep searching for the right answers of my own as well whether to just take it a time off or just walk out from each other life and stay as friend or even start all over again.??..falling in love wasn’t so easy for me as much as falling out of love despite that I see things in every aspect which i consider it’s a best way for everyone in relationship.

Just wanna let you know that what happen between me and you was for real. It was real...The kiss, miss and love came from my sincere heart. I still and always remember the good times that we had and all the obstacles in relationship we been through together. As i said to you, if we happen come across each other life in the future that means we are meant for each other but if we are not let us take that as an experience in our life journey.

Things that i will miss about you are your Egoness, your Ignorance, the fighting, your miss communication with me, the anger look u gave me every time i did something stupid and most important ones is everything that lack in you...cos i love every single piece of you considering the bad and the good ones.

Good Luck for your future undertaking. I will pray and hope everything gonna be good for both of us. Take care my Moo Moo..T_T. You are such a great boyfriend to me. Keep in touch.

Xoxo

Love.peace.hug.

Linda Roos

Would u just listen...whould u?

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now things started to change, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we always fall out,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many days,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I always be one compenent.

happy life..

Alhamdulillah. Everything been quite well as planned. 2day is my Brother's birthday. I couldn't manage to celebrate with him since i've to go to Kelantan for Sua Rasa. Thought i would have my weekends back after the transfered but not exactly. hehe.. Well, i'm happy for what i'm doing now. My family, friends and special ones are so supportive. That's the best past of all.

Shara.Linda & Wani Me and my Love,Shac

Last 2 weeks, I had an enjoyment weekend. Tv9 had its Splish Splash 3rd Anniversary celebration @ Sunway lagoon. Me, Wany, and Liyana slept over @ Sunway Hotel to settle few things 2gether. Everything went so well as we enjoyed ourself there=)

Life is getting more serious each day...the work loads..gosh!! so much!!! i didn't have time of my own..what i do is make myself enjoy and fall in love more and more in what i'm doing ;) INsyAllah, one sweet day i'll be successful.

News to Business Development

My life starting April have changed. I transfered to TV9 Business and Developement group on 1st April. Finally, I'm at the peak of my career target. All this while i wanted to involve in advertising line but i'm always end up in else where.hehe. That's life after all..we can set want we want to be but along the way we accidentally take a wrong turn. For me every turn i took before this make me more wiser..cos it gave me different colors and experiences in life. Now, I'm glad that i've found my route back specificly on my career wise. In terms of realtionship..hmmm..i've no comment bout it. Just stay still on what's going on till the right moment come where i've the guts to figure out and spoke out what's best for me, myself and I.

This Sunday, 19/4/09 will be TV9 3rd Anni!!! wheeee....cant really wait for it.heee
=)

Missing..... >_<

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me. There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you all and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friends, it is with all my heart that I creat you a lil thank you notes to express my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold♥

Bitter hearts...

He gave the meaning to this empty world of mine that never did. Another love another time. As usual he came out of sudden into my life again and made a living fine. He fills my heart with very special things, angel songs and with wild imaginings.(oopss!) He just fills my soul and day with soo much love that anywhere i go I’m never lonely. I reach for his hand where I believe him will always there for me even though we are apart. This happen because the bond and the chemistry between us getting more and more stronger. I always questioning myself, how long does it last… Can love be measured by the hours in a day ?? I have no answers no but this much I can say I know I’ll need him till this love spark turn to a drop of tears.

Truly I cannot say, for never have I felt this thing called love... "So soon?" My mind asks, "Yes" it answers quickly with such surety as my heart assures me to let go...love this man! My mind hesitates with slight fear of remembrances from companions of the past. But tell me...what is life if one cannot love and feel freedom to express that love? As I lie here drifting into the wee hours of the night I remember how you spoke gently to me the words... "That it would take time...time to love again...I put our photo that we took 4 years ago on my computer desktop"! "Why you always come out of sudden?" I ask over again. "How this thing that we went through did start and ended?" and "Where did these deep passionate feelings arise? Truly, I cannot answer... I only know what my heart feels inside... When we are together, there is a wholeness I feel of never before, unlike when we are apart... as if a part of me has been ripped away. But what I did is just go on with my life cos there are much more love to gives to people who deserved it.Yes, I agree... time my love...time. But in the meantime, I myself must let go to this calling of my heart and express these deep currents that flow as a massive stream inside of me...How can I know...This my love... could be my one and only... Time to love?........we never know………..

something that i ponder about..

Don’t find love, let love find you. I keep that phrase and believe it through out my 23 years of life. That’s why it’s called falling in love because i don’t even force myself to fall, i just fall and I don’t even planned it to happen. Once i accept someone for who and what they really are, they will surprise me by being better than i ever expected. LOVE is loving or accepting a person with all strength and weaknesses. Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man. When two friends fall in love they learn they are meant for each other.

When they fall out of love they realize they want to keep each other forever. Isn’t it? I keep finding time to realize that there is one person who means so much to me, for I might wake up one morning losing that person who I thought meant nothing to me. Despite, Love is seeing myself through someone’s eyes and finding myself in somebody’s heart. Once I have loved, I will always love. For what’s in my mind may escape but what’s in my heart will remain forever. Letting go has never been easy and holding on can be as difficult for me. Yet strengths measured not by holding on but by letting go. True LOVE doesn’t have a happy ending, that’s because true love doesn’t have an ending. That’s what I believe in. For that I keep on making a love story of my own.

One has said that Men would rather sacrifice love to conquer the world. Women would rather give up the world just to be with someone worth the sacrifice. For me, decision should not be the choice of your heart or mind but a sensible balancing of both. Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better left kept to our self, but love has its way of expressing itself despite the silence even though some said silent is golden. The happier the memory, the deeper it hurts. There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those I choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for me forever even if my glance remained elsewhere. It breaks my heart to see the one i love is happy with someone else…..but it’s more painful to know that the one i love is unhappy with me ;(

The Feeling Of Love Starts From The Eyes
But If You Try To Close Your Eyes
Love Turns Into A Drop Of Tear
And Remains In Your Heart Forever