the meet up

yesterday was a good day despite that i got to see and join my close fwen's birthday celebration. its been awhile for me to speading time with my close fwens. all the updates seems to be lost half way through my super bz life. when i see all of them yesterday, i know deep in my heart they all still play a big role in my life. faces that went thro ups and down together back in my uni life......seriously is was sooooooooo good seeing them,laughing iver sumthing that wasn't funny and yes.....welcome and gotta know new people.

Despite my warm and happy feeling, there sumthing bothering me...i know when it comes to this kind of gathering or celebration with my fwen's family its gonna be such hustle...this is because....hmmmm...me and her brother happen to fall in love with each other....gosh! It supposed to be easy and fun but.....yesh i truly understand ....when it comes about family things will get slightly sensetive and touching. i'm truly aware about it...

so there goes me handling the situation all alone...well knowing myself pretty well, after all the life experience i went through i'll take it as another challenge in me. Ya Allah, seriously how i wish the person who i'm falling in love with can be beside me and face this situation together..in every bit of my praying, i always include this lil pray for me and him to be in such a good way and will trust each other when others dont...

there goes the 1st meet up, unofficially, wt his parents...no doubt i can say its just another small introduction to the family. well, seems like the siblings know me but not the parents.What bother me is the intoducing part not done by my man...hmm..this is so not rite. but yeah....life is too short to think bout whats others thinking bout one selves.

what happen i take it as warning sign towards me...oh no.. this is not a BULLSHIT kinda sign okay!~ this is what my life which i supposed to deal in the future...ahaks!~ insyAllah...i believes God in the middle clearing our path ^_^'

mybaby frosty on high fever

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here goes the story of my baby frosty.....guess what he have been my rainbow sunshine for the past 1 year plus. woww....let me repeat back...1 YEAR PLUS! Isn't that awesome..that means me and my love ones have been for about a year B-) well actually my life so far been so blessed with beautiful things and wonderful people surround me...frosty is one of them.

what would u feel when someone that really close to u felt sick? The one u always play with...story to tell how unsatisified about people and works...a place to just express your inner emotions and pretty much as a subject matter for your own photography satisaction, in another words that creature is soooooo bloody CUTE which can make your anger turn to peace, hot water u can just drink it at once just like drinking a cold water, hatreats change into love, negative turns to positive....and...that FROSTY is my 1YEAR PLUS WHITE PERSIAN CAT....

yes!After a year he been agressive and super dooper active under the care of Roos's family,today i sadly announce that he been admitted to St. Angel, Pucong

a sincere note that come within my heart...

Dear Amal,

Assalamulaikum...

Firstly i would like to seek for apology if this kinda note somehow bothering you so much. Sorry for the thousand times.. I x sure kalu this email lead us to somewhere beyond our happiness or it will totally put a fullstop between both of us. I just don’t know... you are rite and i agreed with you that i think for about a year dah we been spending time together..all the laughter, quarrel and sometimes a lil fight here and there not forgetting a ‘silent moment’ and a ‘break up’. Yes...we both been facing it those things together. Thus, by right we both should have agree or noted in a sense of mutual understanding. Guess what, look at the bigger picture...we are just one year and if we were to be together, this will happen in getting ourselves to a level of happiness being as ONE~ i still and always have the feeling of what had happen somehow return with a rainbow to me and hope that rainbow can be shine on your life as well. I know you always said that i’m way toooo positive minded...if u happen to see or to discover...that is y u were there to make it me natural.

I’ve been thinking all nite long, We shouldn't identify each other mistakes nut to come out with solutions instead.. rather than addressing our flaws~ because i believes if we are in a relationship with someone we truly love, the moment when we see the potential of love between us..That is the moments when kite ley accept each other positive and negative ways of lives.....don’t u think so? To myself, i pernah spend time with you bkn semata-mata i nak rasa happy keluar berdua2, being wt u for a day..travel wt u..its always beyond that...When the time i spend with u..i nak get into yalife..nak tau u camne...cara u re-act with people ..wt surrounding, timing u makan and minum, how u deal with ya works and the most is how much u appreciate being wt me...or the other way round. I observed benda tu smua...and think wisely on most things between us.....like u said..u wouldn’t bother if i’m not someone to u.. its da same with me..i would’t bother to spend my time wt you if i rasa u just a waste of my time..in fact i always make time for u if u only knew la.......

Looks like u made an optional point on our chat last nite saying if i can’t follow u, i should LEAVE you...........how could i possibly do that??unless when i see the signs and everything starts to change....u become heartless towards me...less communications....less our lovey bubbly chat...less attention..less caring...less and everything less.......that is the moment i’m highly weak & couldn’t do much..I redha~ with God wills..insyAllah i’m strong to face it~ I believes Allah just merely cleaning the path for something better between us...

If you are ready to talk, like i said....take me to the point of your understanding..insyAllah i can manage. Meanwhile..let us both think what is the best next step. You take care and have a safe journey wt family to Singapore.

Your one truly love,

Linda

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I emailed this letter to him after we had quite a massive misunderstanding between us. As usual la, no couples doesn't escape from quarrel and stuffs. But bottom line is..one of us just have to know how to control all the bad emotions that runs through their vain! I spent my day the next day by myself...went out to Chawan,Bangsar brought along an inspirational book ordered a hot jasmine tea and enjoy my truthful moment. Guess what, the feeling of what my other half is doing will always there..seriously i couldn't dent it...is there in me and uhh...i just donno what to do......then i text Dura if she wanna come over and hang round wt me..maybe i just need to talk to someone who i can trust at that particular time(knowing that i barelt trust people except my arwah shakira)~

he doesn't text me...but i'm still keep on looking at my BB. calls ringing..bbm and sms all coming in but not from him....then i decided to put on silent mode and started reading the book- 'corporate Sufi'. At the time i least expected...when i'm put down a call from Dura, his bbm msg suddenly appeared. huhu.....B I N G G O! we both cant just ignore each other that long i guess...not to me...nor to him........maybe my letter open up his heart in some ways..cos knowing him...he never buys any sweet talks AT ALL! Alhamdulillah...everything seems back to normal...and my feelings towards him somehow develop even more.....hopefully he feel the same..ahaks!~

Raya 2011

Its been a while i didn't happen to write down on my life journal. Gosh! such a hectic schedules i have right now. Ever since i lost my gooooood friend, arwah Shakirah Hani, i try to put back my focus on a normal daily life circle. We both are too attached bout few months before Allah took her from her family and her closest friend. It took me for awhile..bout 2 3 weeks to adjust things back to normal as normal as it is before. And yeah..time to express my words and feelings thro this lil e-note book of mine~ My Ramadhan Alhamdulillah i filled it with such a well manner behavior where i welcome almost everything goods to me. Alhamdulillah.

Raya comes with peace to me and i can feel the whole lots different this very year. Perhaps, i gotta celebrate raya with a lil more joy knowing there is someone i love indeed who is my own Boyfriend. such awkward things to find that i've changed slowly to someone good...i mean...not to say that i'm a bad person..somehow there a bad behavior/characters in me slowly fade away. and i donno how does it happen..its shows that THE LOVE FACTOR really works now for me. hmm....Alhamdulillah...for that. My prayers slowly been answered by Allah swt.

Person who are really important and will be there for me at the most everything that i do in this entire world...

Straight face guy- but i Love him.....hee..

disaat ku ingin mencari coretan kisah pelangiku

Tiada sedikit keburukkan yg dijadikan oleh Tuhan untuk manusia.Begitu indahnya hidup sekiranya manusia mengenal dan mengerti makna kehidupan.Inilah titik tolak perjalanan manusia.Ada yg baik dan yg buruk.Kedua2nya mencapai keseimbangan hubungan antara manusia dan alam.Begitu juga hubungan manusia dan Tuhan..Pada lelaki dan perempuan tiada ertinya hubungan kasih itu terjalin tanpa mengetahui isi diri.Yang dilihat hanya keindahan Luaran bukannya dalaman.Ramai menyalah ertikan sayang,cinta dan kasih.Dimana letaknya tingkat perasaan???mana yg dicari???mana yg dipegang???letaknya harga diri hawa kerana adam...letaknya adam disisi Tuhan.

Ya ALlah, tunjukkanlah bagi ku, umat Mu yang lemah ini kejalan yang lebih di rahmatiMu..sesungguhnya Engkaulah tempat aku memohon dan berpegang teguh dan kepada Mu jualah ku berserah segalanya. amin~

the proud 26th lionist! RoaaRR!~

I honestly didn’t think much about my birthday this year, really. I was just trying to direct my positive energy into demanding birthday celebration with my family instead. I must say that’s a pretty tall order, the fact that I was never had a chance to celebrate my birthdays with close friends and bf at the same time before, but because either i was single or i just faced a broken heart again and again which it always happen rite before my birthday..hmm...I just had to “suck that up”!

I just turned 26. The creative Lionist me, is really not big on birthdays. In fact, I went for a short gateway with Mom before just to get rid with my personal problems, where i guess its just hard for people to know and for me to figure it out. I believed my mom knows what I've been facing lately, so I asked her for me to tag along wt her on her business trip to Pakistan.

During that time, I kept away talking much with people...not to my friends or my lovely bf. I think i just need to spend my time alone..rethink bout what i've missed and how to over come strange feelings which i'm having in me lately..Alhamdulillah, 3 days away from my country and found a lil peace in me. And that lil peace have change me to more wiser 26 years old Linda. I did texting my dearest ever friend,Dura, as i'm looking forward to attend Ica babyshower. At the same time, she mentioned would like to celebrate my birthday as well and bear Von Bonyage! I find it pretty cool and glad to come back home wt something awaits me.

Back from Pakistan/India dura told me to bring My lovely bf to the dinner in celebrating my birthday.hmm....even thou its really hard for me as i know the reaction of my bf, glad that i did it and smoothly hide that such feeling i had without anyone can sense it... I was stunned. It was such a well-organised, least-expected birthday surprise! (Although what i'm looking at is meet up wt my fwens that i grew up together with..oh! it was truly fun!!!)

I was and still happy when ever i think of all that i've been thro wt all of them...





Thank you dura, shaqila, ica, and all! I’m so lucky to have great friends like you all. Not forgetting my dearest Amal...thx for being there. :) God bless u all with successful stories;)

Another 19 days to go to my 26th birthday!!! pheww! what a year......

Other things which would be nice: a Thomas Sabo Charm bracelet; a rhinestone bra from la senza(shimmering ta-tas, ahoy!); my all time favorite gadget Ipad2; a night in with fairy lights & kisses; lots of cute colourful knickers; Regan from MAC Flatiron to be my personal make-up artist; good black ink pens; a beautiful apartment somewhere far from the city and over view of beautiful ocean; a fabulous birthday party with my friends or a romantic dine wt my lovely munchkin; peace on earth! Wink wink ;)




P.S. Here’s my wishlist from last last last year!


Super-love,

Linda Roos