just a thought

today i think is not quite a productive day to me. 1st cos my proposition to client been rejected and secondly im atill stuck with this flu and caughing virus..its been almost 2weeks..all vitamins and pills been taken just nk baik cepat...guess its a sign from God kot for me to take a lil break from my works. week to week i've been working on 3 projects at the same time... 1 is obviously been rejected today..will see for another 2 more to be present soon..huhu.

And so in the evening i went to meet my doc again. kali ni amik ubat paling power...bak kata my bf. tot of makan my fav cendol and laksa bawah pokok somewherr near my house but too bad the kakak wt her van doesn't turn out to be at the same place. so, i went and makan shushi alone~

my brain is always functioning ..thinking bout job and such...but being alone this time im actually adapt wt whatever situation i came across. i pick a table at the corner of the sushi king. order my fav salmon sushi and enjoying looking around me till im focusing on this sushi manager. He smiled at me and i think probably he will be saying sumthing like... "kesian nyer budak ni..muke pucat and mkn sorank2"...but what im actually thinking was..."syok ke keja as manager kedai". this sponteneous thought happen in my mind cos what i see la...this guy just duduk caunter and everytime people masuk he will always pronounce 'ohaiyooo'...(dgn nada gumbira sgt)....hmm..then..dia bukak almari kire stok tisu..then gi kat tray kire the shushi stok kot...then casher duty on. and he did da same thing another 30mins. OmG! u guys must be thinking that i've no works just to lepak mkn sushi lelama kan...snap it! this is how im actually memuasabahkan diri...(btul ke ejaan aku ni..hee)

i used to think what if my life is not my life rite now? what if i actually only working and manage a shop and doing the same thing everyday...last time i always think and i wanted a life like what i have now...SubahannAllah...ape yg kite nk jd tuhan beri jua..its just that kite perasan atau tak kan~ and if we know it than Alhamdulillah..and thank to the Almighty God to giving us the kind of life we wanted sbb dia tau how strong seorang hamba tu can take His ujian. MasyAllah...sometimes we just hv to look around us and we know where we actually stand. *tunduk diri*

#justsharin je~ xx

My Week :)

Alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah..

last nite on my dinner date with my love at The Ship Restaurant having our fav steak and lamb, my handsome boyfriend now started to talk and showed his seriousness in marrying me. *blush* chup!!! is he proposing me?? suddently i felt really nervous but muke tetap maintain sambil kunyah2 the yummy steak..hehe. It has been stressful after the nite before i've this lil feeling call 'merajuk sakan'...i really meant it...i mean i never been hard before but that nite i just couldn't take it anymore. how ever i can say that it is such a growing experience and i definitely know he will be by my side thro thick and thin. in syaa Allah... therefore last nite..he taking another .....serious steps for both of us. Ya Rob, ternyata doa aku dikabulkan....and sesungguhnya Engkau la yang mengetahui isi hatiku yg terdalam^_^

there r no words can be explain how i felt in that particular moment. it's as if everything has changed but it hasn't to much..erk..i mean...we will adapt sooner or later with each other respinsibility kann~aww~ ♥♥

But i am sooooo happy now...he even asked me whether im excited or not for our wedding?? fuhh...sumpah inside my heart dah dubdap*dubdap ....and to be truth i feel like im gonna jump up on the dining table and jumping round and shouttt "yayyy!!!! this man....the man that i love would be my husband soon!!!" ***snapped it*** its just an exaggeration imagination of my happy inner soul.lol. the real thing was...ehem...muke maintain je jawab... (-_-) "well..i bet i will be extra exicted after i share this good news wt mama and obviously after both of our parents meet" and i give him my happy smile but ada skit malu2 kucing~ hee♡

then..i was spechless. couldn't form words, thoughts, ideas or anything. i knew i was happy. i knew the shaking was from overwhelming joy from inner me, but i still can make my brain works ...a little~ hee.

he had a nite wt me alone, just to relish in the moment of what his and his family was discussing during the day . No wonder he buzzed me and wanted me to go out wt him for a dinner..seriously i tot it was just a make it up dinner cos of the day before he accidentally put me down. But it was a dinner just talking bout simple things that it clicked. it was a slow click but its one forward. huhu~

It was a COMMITMENT over the 3 yrs of relationship..and Alhamdulillah we took serious in what we have. This was a sign of progression of us making a step forward. For everyone else it was a sign of seriousness. Now eat that people...i know im a person who hv a lil bit koo koo in da head...but yeah...im committed. hee. we both take our love seriously and that we want to be there for each other forever. In syaa Allah~

this proposition will lead to a formal merisik2 thingy..just to make a formality in our adat Melayu ye~ but wowww~~ i have no words to describe what i feel. Perhaps this progression brings peace to my worried mind that we will get there one sweet day. it gives them sight to see fraction of how him and i see each other...their happiness in syaa Allah will bring joy to me as well...hmmm..if that possible to have more (im just being an ordinary person..mmg sentiasa mahukan lebih.lol)

hope dari saat ini...segala yang bakal dirancang and ditempuh will always run smoothly and dirahmati Nya. In syaa Allah...doa kalian smua untuk segala dipermudahkan bg jalan jodoh kami berdua amatlah dihargai and let Allah swt bless us with wonderful things to happen. i'm just a bit overwhelming and happy beyond belief~♥♡♥

Thank you. peace.xoxo

senyap...

1st time dalam idup aku perkara yang aku slaloo look forward and appreciate every single moment on wedding event suddenly tonite had changed to such gloomy and sad feeling after all. Where is the girl who always happy, glamarous, smiling, stylish and confident when ever she attend a wedding ceremony?? where is she???

Ya Allah....if dialah org yg dijanjikan Mu halal bagi ku, maka lahirkan lah rasa itu kembali...lahirkan lah pandangan aku seperti saat pertama aku lihat dia. napa aku x bisa bercakap sambil lihat pada mata nya ya Rob..apa selama ini perkara aku pendam kini buat lidah aku kelu untuk berkata-kata, mata aku berpaling dr dia, jiwa meronta2 memohon kekuatan dari Mu. Sesungguhnya...tlah banyak sign yg aku nampak dia bkn untuk aku...and kali ini...aku akur. let me just redha atas ketentuan mu ya Rob...Engkaulah mencipta segala yg indah buat ku and aku yakin pada ketentuan Mu...and so.aku mula memandang serius untuk selamatkan diri and hati aku ini dahulu...terlalu lama aku tlah comprise with his feeling while actually im hurt inside in every seconds~

maka..cerita KITA ini...pada saat ini...aku hanya mampu berserah pada mu..sesungguhnya Engkau lah yg Maha mengetahui ape yg berada di depan kite and didalam hati kita sendri. my tears that falling down rite now cos of aku akur dgn segala ketentuan Mu ya Allah...kerna...aku hanya seorang perempuan yg lemah dan kini hanya mampu untuk senyap......... aku kesal...kesal kerna aku pilih untuk senyap walhal aku bisa berbicara and menegur sesama umat...tp apakan daya...hati aku terlalu pasrah dgn keadaan....

:(

kenduri kendara~

having a kenduri isnt a new thing in my family. since im small, my parents always threw birthday parties...kenduri keayukuran, doa selamat..tahlil and ..yeah all celebrations indeed. hehe..myself and whole my siblings i guess dh adapt wt this kinda keramaian...mix with people from different ages is benda biasa...like my fwens are fwens wt my bros and mama knows i think nearly all of my fwens..hee.

myself as well friends and communicate wt mama's fwens, sis's fwen and my brothers' fwens. isnt that awesome?? huhu. yes it is. all the connections we had totally sumthing that we could count and respect on.

today, mama did a kenduri calling all her biro2 masjid al-rahman to attend a small celebration (trust me..my mom called it small but i think ita HuGe) lol...doa selamat on her 58th birthday, tahlil for abah and our families member yg lain...and od course for future undertaking..rezki....jodoh..yada...yada.....

pak cik..imam masjid...makcik...aunties...uncles...friends...relatives are all gathered together. setiap saat aku memerhatikan everyone and sumpah..i can see in every faces lay a wonder happy smile. Alhamdulillah. the feeling of seeing people enjoyed the food and the awesome get together moment really made me felt so blessed be in such a wonderful surrounding. from babies to a wrickles women....i did what i supposed to do. Ya Allah..tiap tetamu yg hadir tu adalah doa sejahtera untuk family aku ni. syukran al jaziran~
ada sorank mak cik ni la...kawan to my mother.guess she always went to masjid wt mama (gank masjid la kot) ...she came to me shaked hand with me and lama tul dia pegang tangan aku ni....sambil bertanya itu ini...but the one question she did asked me was..."awak anak hj Ani ni yg dulu sakit ke?"....hee..im like seriously??? seriously ke im famous among mama's fwen? huhu.

to be honest..it was really a hard time for mama to went thro back then. And this mak cik..gi usap kepala i..."Alhamdulillah..anak dh sihat...makin lawa plak tu" (perlu ke aku mention kat sini) ....and dia sambung..."cari jodoh dgn org yg btul2 menerima kite seadanya ye nak"...dah tu..dia siap bacakan doa depan muke aku ni...and cium dahi aku and said.." moga panjang umur and murah rezeki...assalamualaikum"... *confused* ni dh cam my birthday doa slamat la plak kan~ hehe

to be frank...it was a great celebration :) more barakah to my family and may God always bless us with wonderful things in His world . Amin.

my looner weekend

this weekend i have a top mission to be accomplish..1st i've to kemas2 my room..get rid of old items that i think useable and non useable guess it belong to the dusbin. so, on saturday ive been doing the wardrobe clearence.huhu. The whole day till my mom called me to teman her to her kilang sofa.

so there i went with her. blk tu i asked my mom to teman me buying a TV Led..hehe. since im decorating my own room..guess i throw out some items and i definitely gonna add on few stuffs. lol. smart TV Led brand phillip soon come into my room.yehhaaa~ btul ckp org...by the time umur nk dekat late twenty ni if not marry yet, we tend to distant our selve from hectic lifestyle...so..home person im to be soon. hiks! (not much of a thing to do nowdays)...smart tv is my toy to play around with.hehe. sampai demam2 la smalam dok kemas bilik...rearranged tables and drawers and decorate itu ini..

and this morning i went out jogging round my house park just to get a lil sweat. Alhamdulillah...fever gone lil bit. then, i did my breakfast at my sista's yawww before hit to IKEA~

waiting for my bro to teman is taking ages..let me do it and settle things by my own..sebaik la tulang 4 kerat aku ni still terdaya...well..im allergic to benda2 lembab..whats on my mind i always put it into real action....

tu dia...trying to be "iron lady" searching for my tv cabinet and i gotta panjat ...angkat...and do all sort of heavy duty works ALONE. *pengsan* but to think back...i juat smile~ hoping one day my hero will be there to help me out with men's stuffs....aiyakk~ penat woo..dh cam main reality game kena cari barang2 kat gudang ikea :(

today mission completed! Alhamdulillah..smua in order..and on time! both item will be deliver to my house 2moro..meanwhile...ehem* touch up bilik skit. 2013 ..told ya..its my freaking year~ more success story to be tell bout soon..insyallah.xx
peaxe yaww~

wonder~

Ya Allah...its just so freaking hard to understand guys sometimes. the more i dig my own effort in knowing him...i tend to get lost in transistion...* sambil dgr lagu naluri lelaki*

Maybe ....just maybe..i give it too much thought on what his thinking. cos i hv this big sympathy heart which i always think i can help to solve what ever problems that someone face it...hmm..dah la....remember la wahai linda...if someone doesn't even tell single story or seeking for help..jgn la nk gatal2 hv the thought of being a "super hero" ^_^

enuff said. wish we could travel in a same mind~ xx

Disebalik lipatan kain itam....o_0

This is somehow my own experience to witness such thing rite in front of my eyes. ..hehe. semakin aku travel semakin terbuka minda aku ni...i mean panjang btul akal aku merayap in that sense. Familly trip to London and Paris was not just a Family trip to just having fun...for me, in every of my journey it wakes me up with new things to be ponder about. So this time was about benda duniawi ni....i’ve seen and i felt it. U know.. girls who been in such high fashion city..My God!! Tergugat iman...eceyh! me being such a typical girl back then in London..shopping sakan!! Bought lots of stuffs for my siblings, friends, and business partners and of course la to myself.

Semua shopping mall i was in on BOXING Day..till da day my mom said, lets go to HARRODS!! Well...mmg i planned to go there to look for my fav handbag. On the way to Harrods, mama told me, that was the shopping mall my late Abah used to shop with her...from perfumes, handbags to home stuffs! No wonder la..mama extra syok nk ke harrods. Lol

We actually spiltted when i got to harrods. I was going to handbags department and mama was in upper level. And yeah, this was the part i see and i learn. I’ve choose the handbag which I think I  like to buy and was been told to check the goods at the front counter. Well..it was actually a small room wt a counter. Guess x de la panjang sgt kena beratur cos just me and....this one Pak Arab and 2 of the sales person in the glass room.

Aku tgk kan aja Pak Arab ni...bkn main lg dia beli handbag sampai 4 5 ketul! Hiks! And those handbag is not cheap plak tu...the one in know it cost about 13K in Ringgit Malaysia k. Aku rasa ada gak 50K dia abis ni. So, while waiting for him to settle his payment...yang ada je la x kena tu..i watched him deal with the sales person. Then he looked at me...”you wanna pay 1^st??”...and i was like.. “err..yeah sure..whichever easy with you”.. dalam hati aku bagus gak aku bayar dulu..pak arab ni gile cerewet!! Skali the sales person said, “ sorry maam, you have to wait for awhile cos we did scan 2 of this Man purchase items”..LoL! “ i’m good with that, no worries,” i replied! And this Pak Arab smile at me while im bout to sit on the couch! Huhu....Deal punya deal..pak arab tu confirm amik 5 beg!!! So i stood up blk and beratur la behind him...”and the total is 6,892 pounds all together”...that wasn't surprised me at all...I was surprised and shocked when the Man actually open up his Briefcase FULL WITH MONEY..siap berikat-ikat. OMG!!! He was paying with CASH with a sum total of more than thousand!! Ya Rob....Kaya nyerrrrrrrr this dude (i was saying this in my heart with my eyes was wide open seeing those cAsh!) . Knowing me...muke surprised aku ni mmg x ley cover lansung arr..Benci! sampai pak arab tu look at me...haha. “ This is my Pride”! wah gitu sih....jgn nk belagak sgt la...then he started to talked...”bought this  for my wife and daughters” (sambil tunjuk istri and anak2 pompuan dia yang semua BERPURDAH ye tunggu kat luar bilik kaca tu). Perghhhh!!!

He asked me am i here alone ?  dalam ati aku klo aku ckp yes ada nanti kes culik terjadi ni...but as i scanned him from up to toe..he looks very pleasant and a family type of guy..i guess. Once he'd paid all handbags, his wife and daughters came and approached him. That moment i can feel the room totally filled with love and happiness....before he went off he said sorry to keep me waiting and i looked at his wife and smile. Guess, di sebalik purdah tu pon dia senyum la kot kat aku ni yg beli satu je handbag just to reward myself.hehe. And in my heart.... UNTUNG nyer wanita berkain itam ni...bkn untung sebab dapat handbag...Untung berlipat ganda cos she actually hv a husband that really knows to value ‘Darjat seorang Wanita”..Why did i said that?? His Husband actually told me as he was paying those purchase goods.. “THIS IS MY PRIDE” (teringat muke bangga dia ckp benda ni)....aww !come on~...i really know how to read between the lines, thou. Don’t you all get it?

Well...in my words i would explain...his wife and daughter are his Pride...terkawal maruah isteri and anak2 pompuan dia, maka darjat wanita itu tinggi la di mata dia~ even heaven terletak dibawah tapak kaki kaum hawa or Ibu. MasyAllah~ i just gor it! BINGGO! And his wife as she passed thro me.. i heard she said softly...” Assalamualaikum”...erk....”waalaikumsalam”..*SMILE* :)

Maybe dalam  jubah itam and purdah tu simpan rahsia yang hanya the husband and wife je tau. Concept nyer dalam islam is Perempuan kena berlawa hanya untuk SUAMI nya aje ye. And for that maybe the husband x de hal la abiskan sampai ribuan pounds for his only “PRIDE that will shadow him to a highest Jannah”~wah..class gitu kan~ ehem..amacam u ols...bley buat tak?? Jeng jeng jeng...hehe. I was toOooOoo freaking Impressed till my mama came and spotted me termenung...lol. and my adik always sentapkan me with...”woiii...termenung keja setan la” haha!  Pfft!

So jangan memain u ols...disebalik kain itam itu punya handbag hermes, channel, prada, and couch taw....yang hanya tuk kepuasan si isteri tercinta and tatapan sang suami yang penyanyang. Tu smua duniawi tu yang buat this family tak belagak sgt..serious klo jumpe kat luar ni npk cam arab2 yang biasa je...yang slaloo buat kecho..but this one is different..looks like very educated and rasa nyer dlm aliran “Al-bashi” kot..huhu...rasa nyer la..cos its freaking RICHHHHH~ *_* lol

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Xx pweace!

P.A.R.I.S

i never been to Paris. all i know is a romantic city and i've this lil notty wish in my teenage years to have a wonderful French Kiss in front of effile tower..of course wt my hubby. but i happen went to Paris with my family~ @$!^#* kill that lil wish of yours, Linda)!(*#₩€=£《¤ hehe

Paris in my own words i would say...

1. kota romantik
2. Fashion city
3. Top designer collections
4. its a historical city
5. An art
6. smua muke stok model je...dari the one yg jd promoter for butik and kedai makan...*unique*

what in da world i could ever imagine celebrating my new year in Paris!! Like OMG..it is happening.. *double slapps* !! the best part..it was just me , mama and my lil bro!! mama told me once, the place that i standing was actually a same place as my late dad were capturing her photo. aww~ i donno i've my dad's vission to see whats da best angle to capture the image.huhu... memories after memories been told....thats the city my mama and abah were dating those days~ ♥

If i were to have the same thing  to tell my kids..i will tell them...cyberjaya je tempat we all dating...x jauh pon~ haha. dasyat tul dating sampai ke paris...guess its during my mom study years in London~  beside side seeing, we did travel to a small town ..choisy Le Roy where we stay at. it is simple and a friendly town i can said.

Shopping was fantastic!!! others was great.....i officially fall in Love wt paris~ ♥

2013 is my year~

Bismillahirahmanirahim~ Alhamdulillah..another year for me to venture. Of course..those past things that happen leave such a wonderful remark to me..either the bad or the good ones. I've literally made myself to a satisfied level which i would always thabk God and peopke round me. Syukur this year i end up and begin my year with my own Family.

2weeks plus me and my family went to a loooooooonggggggg europe holiday yaw!! inniatially was me travelling alone then my mom wanna join me...and end up 2 of my brothers also tag along. Awesome!! and it became a FAMiLY HOLiDAY. the best part a week before we pushed off, my sista from 1st family buzz and said that she will coming down to LONdOn!

ok..whats next? kekok plak rasa gi holiday wt family while at this age i gotta bring my kids and family rite...but hey hey...im still and always be my mom lil girl ^_^ hiks! ....London was awesome...its like shopping heaven! i touched down in London on christmas day....the city was quite empty..but hell yeah..the next day i witness 'the Boxing' day yaw!!

there goes half of my time in london..busy shopping and side seeing..not much of ay side seeing cos this is not my 1st time be in London city! basically, i enjoy much of my time wt my family. thats more important :)