year 2011...productive and prosperity year of me.

how do i began my kind story of year 2011. basically is all about LOVE, love and love.....haha...sounds so boring je my life ni if it is all about that one thing called love.

to be specific, alhamdulillah i'm getting to where my direction had directed me so far. im pretty much follow then flow kind of people but i've come to certain stage where by i take things lightly and of course wisely. well...seriously i can say that it is true the best teacher to us is our own experience.....not to say that i got a lot of experience but u know everyone pon ada je experience dia sendri but how oneself take it toward their life in moving forward to much more better them...rite?

let me start about work..cos dah rasa i'm married to my own job je...below ar the scenario i've been facing thro my days of work at redberry media wherr category yg stock pas 7 years pon the memoriesmus still fresh on my mind...hooefully la kan i'm still alive...lol

1. silap paham ni ngan teman sekerja aku...i mean i know her personally as a fwen, and a colleague to my ntah pape life ni kan..stok gado sampai x bertegur smua ni...for me i make a distance just nak redakan keadaan ala2 berombak tu kan....pompuan ni..oppss..alamak dh terkluar plak gender dia kan...ya ya..dia seorang gadis...skali tgk cam ala2 sombong suke usha org semacam and cam baguss je muke dia...but lek dulu..kite jgn judge luaran je !sumpah la sampai dpt cucu pon kite ley lagi kire pakai jari bape byk kwn kite ada kan.hahahaa....and aku bkn la org cam tu....benda2 cam ni its just a minor things and i dont really make them store i my cluttered mind. >_< so bye2 this kinda interruption..and still welcome friendship with her but seriously i gotta say..i kena batas kan pergaulan. to me she put shitz on my life is a sign that i should jaga2 in my future undertaking.

2. RELATIONSHIP! gosh! everybody pon seems to end up their bujang llife wt their partner....when is my turn..i wonder.ok better stop here cos seriously...benda2 cam ni i always serahkan pada yg Maha Mengetahui...for me to take charge is the part of my OWN EFFORT. buat sekadar yg termampu..yg lain terserah~ klo ada jodoh tu ado la....but of course deep inside me i just want to hv my own family with beautiful kids...*berangan* i better start do my check list..remind me in the years to come that...HELLOOOOOO UR ARE AGING Ms LINDA ROOS...*sepak2 depan cermin* mind always said i'm old by my heart always remain young...still suke pd benda cute2...gank and quarrel wt my niece and nephew..hahaha..thats just me! Nway, to those my close friends...CONGRATS la sape yg yg dh berkawin...and thanks making me one of ya bridemaid...tu ke la status yg plg jauh aku ley pegang...status kawin and jd isteri org ngan sah cam....hmm....x der pon npk sign2 dia...mama ckp, seorang laki yg boley npk a true value of a girl as wife is actually the one for us! meaning? sesape je ek yg tetibe melamar kite tu dia yg THE ONE ek? urghh... *confused* cos ape yg aku rasa is cam ne pon..i just love to wait for my prince charming come and propose ..x pandai la nak cari2 ni. BF yg ada pon yg terbaik skang ni and we starts to talk on our futre lately *suke* :) (maybe x der yg memaksa lg aku ni...tu la take it easy) ...no pressure at all...lol. Yang seharusnyer...just bykkan doa mudah-mudahan dipertemukan ngan jodoh yg sekufu. amin!

3.  CAREER!! Pretty much Success in certain point....Lagi besar nak mengorak langkah aku ni di tahun yg akan dtg! more mission to accomplish insyallah rezeki di murahkan lagi. kesimpulan nyer...Alhamdulillah aje la ape yg ada ni but still fight for more and moreeee....$$$$

4. FAMILY: Ya ampunnnn.......lamaaaaa x spend time wt family like rally2 spend time. for the past one year when i started my new career ni, i gotta juggle wt life just to make myself in a stable zone as before. U know changing career baru aku tau..bkn nyer pk sbb money..its all about time indeed. How details i tell here in my post x sama cam ape yg i hadapi..i mean..u guys out there kena experience by ya won if u guys now dh dlm comfort zone in ya own career just like i had last time....bile tukar keja..MasyAllah~ tuhan je la tau....leteyyyyy and worries all da time. Sebaik la i managed to go through hustles...Sujud syukur la aku sentiasa ni~ guess what..there is  a new edition in ROOS's famil soon... now my sis in her 9months..anytime its her due time...yay! BABY lagiii......=) *LOVE*

Lastly, pada smua rakan2..kenalan yg aku kenal secara kasar atau  just jeling2 je ke ape...SLAMAT TAHUN BARU..... ikhlas from me i've to say that all my mistakes or wrong doing in all this year yg sengaja or x sengaja pls pls pls...forgive me. From the bottom of my heart i will forgive the same regardless if u guys wont forgive me ... :p bkn kena byr pon cuma kena ikhlas jew =)


SLAMAT TAHUN BARU, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! May this coming year bring joy and more prosperity to ya life and family. God Bless us all. amin~

MOE DEAL under REDBERRY MEDIA

SEALED! alhamdulillah....the deal that i'd made was the 1st deal between Redberry Media and government sector I donno how i managed to get the deal signed but all i know being in sales & Marketing is something i good at. 4 years of working experience under media industries really thought me well. So for people out there who really into media sales & Marketing..it is not like any sale industries where you can just sell with a minimum understanding on certain product. Guess what, i gotta spend my time everyday..EVERYDAY in dealing wt people. Cos i believes the more we talk the more we can slowly get some insightful tots. And that particular insights can be use as our own 'bullet' in sales battle field.

Because time is pack wt bz schedules i tend to 110% focus on works.. i can say i pretty bz 'menanam benih' and now slowly the seed been develop.Just wait for the seed to produce more beautiful and wonderful things to my life. Mean while, i gotta deal wt office politics yang forever pon i dont understand why and how that particular issues arrise...cos i dont give a Shitz on whats happening in the office as my tiime is always about my life, my achievement and my f*cking career growth..(event thou i couldn't see that ..but there is always a believes in me somewhere....hmmm...somewhere beyond my expectation perhaps) hee..

Alhamdulillah for the blessing from MAMA especially...oh ya..my Lovely bf yg penuh sabar with my perangai yg always kelam kaibut when it comes about works even thou that particular time i actually spending time wt him. hummp! i'm sorry...but u know that i love u more that my work..cos u make things happen for me in someways~ heehe. And i sooOOooo Glad that what i wish came thro...i mean what i wrote back then on New Year 2010..i really wanna treat mom and siblings to somewhere we all enjoy and its like family bonding time.
Guess what, i make it even cooler by arrange my time doing my works and at the same time enjoying wt family...WTF! for sure u'll be thinking i'm crazy....well at least i squeeze my time to be perfectly utilized. I brough my Abg from TV3 as a crew to cover for Festival Layang-layang sedunia at pasir Gudang and at the same time bring my adik and mama down to follow me just to give them a glimpse of experience as what i did last time for Redberry Media. I always stand with this kind quote ' A GOOD TEACHER IS OUR OWN EXPERIENCE' ...gee...i seperate it among others as well. pendek kata, mmg i just love to do amal jariah..x syok la i experienced it all alone kan..might as well i bg way to my mama and siblings. Then, its up to them how they gonna take the value into their own life :) 2 days at Pasir gudang festival layang2 and 1 day at Singapore UNIVERSAL STUDIO!!!!!! wheee....hmm...i'm tired now...but had so much fun when everytime i thnk bout it. lol

To my 1st post for this year...i've to say I LOVE MY JOB AND THE PEOPLE THAT TRUST AND GAVE ME OPPORTUNITY TO SHOW THE POTENTIAL VALUE IN ME. Trimas. My mission now been updated........counting days......:)

xoxo

the meet up

yesterday was a good day despite that i got to see and join my close fwen's birthday celebration. its been awhile for me to speading time with my close fwens. all the updates seems to be lost half way through my super bz life. when i see all of them yesterday, i know deep in my heart they all still play a big role in my life. faces that went thro ups and down together back in my uni life......seriously is was sooooooooo good seeing them,laughing iver sumthing that wasn't funny and yes.....welcome and gotta know new people.

Despite my warm and happy feeling, there sumthing bothering me...i know when it comes to this kind of gathering or celebration with my fwen's family its gonna be such hustle...this is because....hmmmm...me and her brother happen to fall in love with each other....gosh! It supposed to be easy and fun but.....yesh i truly understand ....when it comes about family things will get slightly sensetive and touching. i'm truly aware about it...

so there goes me handling the situation all alone...well knowing myself pretty well, after all the life experience i went through i'll take it as another challenge in me. Ya Allah, seriously how i wish the person who i'm falling in love with can be beside me and face this situation together..in every bit of my praying, i always include this lil pray for me and him to be in such a good way and will trust each other when others dont...

there goes the 1st meet up, unofficially, wt his parents...no doubt i can say its just another small introduction to the family. well, seems like the siblings know me but not the parents.What bother me is the intoducing part not done by my man...hmm..this is so not rite. but yeah....life is too short to think bout whats others thinking bout one selves.

what happen i take it as warning sign towards me...oh no.. this is not a BULLSHIT kinda sign okay!~ this is what my life which i supposed to deal in the future...ahaks!~ insyAllah...i believes God in the middle clearing our path ^_^'

mybaby frosty on high fever

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here goes the story of my baby frosty.....guess what he have been my rainbow sunshine for the past 1 year plus. woww....let me repeat back...1 YEAR PLUS! Isn't that awesome..that means me and my love ones have been for about a year B-) well actually my life so far been so blessed with beautiful things and wonderful people surround me...frosty is one of them.

what would u feel when someone that really close to u felt sick? The one u always play with...story to tell how unsatisified about people and works...a place to just express your inner emotions and pretty much as a subject matter for your own photography satisaction, in another words that creature is soooooo bloody CUTE which can make your anger turn to peace, hot water u can just drink it at once just like drinking a cold water, hatreats change into love, negative turns to positive....and...that FROSTY is my 1YEAR PLUS WHITE PERSIAN CAT....

yes!After a year he been agressive and super dooper active under the care of Roos's family,today i sadly announce that he been admitted to St. Angel, Pucong

a sincere note that come within my heart...

Dear Amal,

Assalamulaikum...

Firstly i would like to seek for apology if this kinda note somehow bothering you so much. Sorry for the thousand times.. I x sure kalu this email lead us to somewhere beyond our happiness or it will totally put a fullstop between both of us. I just don’t know... you are rite and i agreed with you that i think for about a year dah we been spending time together..all the laughter, quarrel and sometimes a lil fight here and there not forgetting a ‘silent moment’ and a ‘break up’. Yes...we both been facing it those things together. Thus, by right we both should have agree or noted in a sense of mutual understanding. Guess what, look at the bigger picture...we are just one year and if we were to be together, this will happen in getting ourselves to a level of happiness being as ONE~ i still and always have the feeling of what had happen somehow return with a rainbow to me and hope that rainbow can be shine on your life as well. I know you always said that i’m way toooo positive minded...if u happen to see or to discover...that is y u were there to make it me natural.

I’ve been thinking all nite long, We shouldn't identify each other mistakes nut to come out with solutions instead.. rather than addressing our flaws~ because i believes if we are in a relationship with someone we truly love, the moment when we see the potential of love between us..That is the moments when kite ley accept each other positive and negative ways of lives.....don’t u think so? To myself, i pernah spend time with you bkn semata-mata i nak rasa happy keluar berdua2, being wt u for a day..travel wt u..its always beyond that...When the time i spend with u..i nak get into yalife..nak tau u camne...cara u re-act with people ..wt surrounding, timing u makan and minum, how u deal with ya works and the most is how much u appreciate being wt me...or the other way round. I observed benda tu smua...and think wisely on most things between us.....like u said..u wouldn’t bother if i’m not someone to u.. its da same with me..i would’t bother to spend my time wt you if i rasa u just a waste of my time..in fact i always make time for u if u only knew la.......

Looks like u made an optional point on our chat last nite saying if i can’t follow u, i should LEAVE you...........how could i possibly do that??unless when i see the signs and everything starts to change....u become heartless towards me...less communications....less our lovey bubbly chat...less attention..less caring...less and everything less.......that is the moment i’m highly weak & couldn’t do much..I redha~ with God wills..insyAllah i’m strong to face it~ I believes Allah just merely cleaning the path for something better between us...

If you are ready to talk, like i said....take me to the point of your understanding..insyAllah i can manage. Meanwhile..let us both think what is the best next step. You take care and have a safe journey wt family to Singapore.

Your one truly love,

Linda

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I emailed this letter to him after we had quite a massive misunderstanding between us. As usual la, no couples doesn't escape from quarrel and stuffs. But bottom line is..one of us just have to know how to control all the bad emotions that runs through their vain! I spent my day the next day by myself...went out to Chawan,Bangsar brought along an inspirational book ordered a hot jasmine tea and enjoy my truthful moment. Guess what, the feeling of what my other half is doing will always there..seriously i couldn't dent it...is there in me and uhh...i just donno what to do......then i text Dura if she wanna come over and hang round wt me..maybe i just need to talk to someone who i can trust at that particular time(knowing that i barelt trust people except my arwah shakira)~

he doesn't text me...but i'm still keep on looking at my BB. calls ringing..bbm and sms all coming in but not from him....then i decided to put on silent mode and started reading the book- 'corporate Sufi'. At the time i least expected...when i'm put down a call from Dura, his bbm msg suddenly appeared. huhu.....B I N G G O! we both cant just ignore each other that long i guess...not to me...nor to him........maybe my letter open up his heart in some ways..cos knowing him...he never buys any sweet talks AT ALL! Alhamdulillah...everything seems back to normal...and my feelings towards him somehow develop even more.....hopefully he feel the same..ahaks!~

Raya 2011

Its been a while i didn't happen to write down on my life journal. Gosh! such a hectic schedules i have right now. Ever since i lost my gooooood friend, arwah Shakirah Hani, i try to put back my focus on a normal daily life circle. We both are too attached bout few months before Allah took her from her family and her closest friend. It took me for awhile..bout 2 3 weeks to adjust things back to normal as normal as it is before. And yeah..time to express my words and feelings thro this lil e-note book of mine~ My Ramadhan Alhamdulillah i filled it with such a well manner behavior where i welcome almost everything goods to me. Alhamdulillah.

Raya comes with peace to me and i can feel the whole lots different this very year. Perhaps, i gotta celebrate raya with a lil more joy knowing there is someone i love indeed who is my own Boyfriend. such awkward things to find that i've changed slowly to someone good...i mean...not to say that i'm a bad person..somehow there a bad behavior/characters in me slowly fade away. and i donno how does it happen..its shows that THE LOVE FACTOR really works now for me. hmm....Alhamdulillah...for that. My prayers slowly been answered by Allah swt.

Person who are really important and will be there for me at the most everything that i do in this entire world...

Straight face guy- but i Love him.....hee..

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Tiada sedikit keburukkan yg dijadikan oleh Tuhan untuk manusia.Begitu indahnya hidup sekiranya manusia mengenal dan mengerti makna kehidupan.Inilah titik tolak perjalanan manusia.Ada yg baik dan yg buruk.Kedua2nya mencapai keseimbangan hubungan antara manusia dan alam.Begitu juga hubungan manusia dan Tuhan..Pada lelaki dan perempuan tiada ertinya hubungan kasih itu terjalin tanpa mengetahui isi diri.Yang dilihat hanya keindahan Luaran bukannya dalaman.Ramai menyalah ertikan sayang,cinta dan kasih.Dimana letaknya tingkat perasaan???mana yg dicari???mana yg dipegang???letaknya harga diri hawa kerana adam...letaknya adam disisi Tuhan.

Ya ALlah, tunjukkanlah bagi ku, umat Mu yang lemah ini kejalan yang lebih di rahmatiMu..sesungguhnya Engkaulah tempat aku memohon dan berpegang teguh dan kepada Mu jualah ku berserah segalanya. amin~